✓monthly boyfriend • minsung

🌹thirty six

i'm not proud of this one too i feel like crying fujck

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(tw//attempted suicide)

Jisung panted heavily and his heart stopped when seeing the guy turned his head to him with a blank look.

He couldn't believe his eyes.

"H...hyung..?"

The older took out one of the earbuds, "Jisungie?"

"Hyung, what are you doing?" his voice was shaky. He didn't dare to move in his place, afraid if Minho does something out of his expectation. The male was already at the edge of the roof, one step could destroy everything. "Come... come down. It's dangerous."

The brunette chuckled, scaring Jisung. The younger guy already had tears pooled at the corner of his eyes, only waiting for them to escape. "Jisungie, do you care about me?"

Why is he asking that...

"Hyung come down please—"

"Do you?"

"I do! Fuck! I do care for you I fucking care for you just come down!" he cried. "Just don't do it please you're going to regret this later I promise you it won't bring good."

He had no idea what he should do in this situation, he had never experienced it and heck, he had never expected Minho would go this far. All this time he thought the guy will wait until he properly talks to his mother when they reached home later but didn't he know Minho hid so much more from him.

Jisung felt like he wasn't doing enough for Minho.

Minho smiled sadly, "My mom doesn't."

"Min.."

"What's the point of living with your mom hating on you?" he asked the frequent question that's been playing in his mind for long. He'd never understand how a parent hate their own child like his mother does. Unlucky to be him, he's one of the hated children.

Again, why him?

Jisung couldn't say anything. He'd never felt or known what Minho had gone through until this point. Because of that he didn't know what he should do to make the guy come down from the higher step without triggering him. This is a nightmare.

"My family is broken because of me, Jisung-ah. My dad is no longer happy like he always do and my mom hates me more when found out I'm bisexual. It hurts." the male cried again, ignoring the song that repeats in the other earphone. "Isn't it better if I'm gone?"

"Then what about me? Are you going to leave me?"

"Don't play that card."

"Are you seriously going to leave me?" he carefully took steps forward. "Hyung, we promised to wait for each other and this is not what I waited for."

"Jisung—"

"I told you, you can use me as your safe place to rant, cry and anything but not this. Everyone won't be happy if you're gone–"

"Everyone talks about me."

"I promised you I will help."

"Jisung just stop!" he shouted, immediately stopping Jisung from coming closer. He was already near the edge and could pull Minho whenever he wants but the shouts startled him. This time he could see clearer image of the brown haired guy. His eyes were puffy and his face was stained with tears.