My Time

22 ~ Love Again

After a month, Hinata had begun to feel sensation in his limbs. He would be injected with this new medicine they were developing to help gain movement. Soon, Hinata got moved out of the critical ward and went into a different ward. He also found out he was to have a new roommate. 

Kenma Kozume. Diagnosed with Anemia from a young age, he still tried to surpass it. After tiring himself from too much volleyball, he found himself unconscious on the court. The next thing he knew, he was in the hospital, attached to IV's. 

Hinata and Shoyo got along together. Well, at least, Hinata tried. Kenma always seemed to be focused on his phone or switch, but Hinata still tried to bond with him. 

After spending a month together, they had bonded closer. Kenma was going to be discharged soon but would return back once every other week to check upon him. 

Every time Shoyo saw the pudding-haired male, it made his heart flutter. And, eventually, he thought that maybe, he too could love again. 

Hinata had slowly begun to walk again. Well, with the help of crutches at least. And with the final day of rooming with Kenma, he decided he had a few things to say. 

"Kenma...?"

"Yes, Sho?" 

"Kenma, God I like you! Maybe even more than just to the point where I like you. Over the span of getting to know you, I just couldn't get you off my mind because you really made me feel special. Over this time span, I've accepted the fact that I want to love again, but my heart just won't accept love unless it was coming from you. Kenma, I'm telling you this because I want you to know that I, Hinata Shoyo like you more than to the point of just wanting to be friends. I like you to the point where I just think I might be going crazy! Hilarious isn't it. I'm genuinely pouring my feelings into the words so you truly understand. Kenma, even if you don't like me I'll accept it but I want you to know my true honest feelings. I Never thought there was a point in time where I was going to confess first but here we go. I'm honestly scared to death, I'm not good with confrontation but I mean I've made it this far already. So, Kenma, please don't reject me and just hear me out. At first, I just thought I was being the silly boy who I've always been but through this whole process, you allowed me to view things so differently. You've changed my vision to the point where I don't want it to be the same. I want you to be there Kenma. I like you, like wouldn't even be the right thing, for hell's sake I think I might even just love you! I know that we are going to be long-distance after I recover, but I won't let time stop me from getting something I want. That thing I want is you Kenma! I want you so badly that it hurts every fibre of my being to be separated from you. I don't want anything to get in-between us! I just won't accept the fact about so many things. Maybe at first, I was in denial but here I am confessing to you. So Kenma, oh dear sweet fucking Kenma. All those hours you're gone it kills me because I feel as my soul is going to be taken without you. Kenma, you mean so much to me and I want you to know and appreciate it. I want to be by your side. I want to be yours to hold, to touch, to kiss. Because Kenma, for God's sake I fucking love you. So please, don't break my heart...not again...I can't handle the heartbreak anymore." 

Hinata was on the verge of tears as he poured his heart out. He had never felt so god damn vulnerable in his life. Never. Not after what Yams had done to him, never would he had thought that he would recover. But the way that Kenma made him feel was different. He was different. He was special. Hinata wanted this god damn man that was in front of him and he wanted him now. 

Kenma's eyes flooded with tears, as he walked towards the smaller male. He brought Hinata into a tight embrace, soothingly rubbing circles on his back. 

"Shoyo...I love you too..." 

Hinata gasped, his hands rested on Kenma's chest. 

"Really?"

"Yeah, it's just that I'm so god damn happy that you've told me Sho."

Kenma cupped Hinata's cheeks, planting a soft kiss on the smaller male's forehead. Hinata's face flushed red with embarrassment. 

He then leant forward, bringing their lips together. His lips were soft and lovely. The kiss didn't hold anything against him. It was a cute little peck. Hinata blinked a bit before going in for another kiss. This time, it was more than just a peck, but it was filled with love and desire. It was the best feeling Hinata had ever felt. He never thought he would feel this way for anyone. 

They broke the kiss, their foreheads leaning together. 

"I know that we barely know each other Sho and that I'm not the best at talking to people, but you've taught me what it is to see colour again, because you Sho, are my sunshine. I love you my little pea." 

Hinata's gaze met with Kenma's as their foreheads pressed against each other. He gently rubbed his nose against Kenma's. 

"I love you too, Ken Ken."

Maybe, it would be fine opening up his heart again. It would be all worth it because Hinata Shoyo would finally be able to love again. 

They sat there, on a hospital bed, fingers intertwined, lips locked. The sun was setting through the glass pane window. They were in dishevelled, hospital-smelling, tacky hospital attire, but at that moment, nobody was more beautiful to them than each other. 

And maybe, Hinata could finally just love again.