One of the most important things in life is to cherish every moment with the one you love. Dahil hindi natin hawak ang oras ng buhay. But how could I cherish every memory of us when in the first place, hindi naman pala ako naging parte ng buhay nya?
"Miss, are you waiting for someone?" I asked the woman on the waiting area.
Seems like she's waiting for someone na mukang hindi na darating, at halatang hindi sya naiinip. It's quarter past 7 at kaming dalawa na lang ang nandito sa waiting area. Aalis na sana ako ngunit naisip kong maiiwan syang mag-isa rito. I don't know, but I'm not comfortable to leave her here alone.
Humarap sya sa akin para sagutin ang itinanong ko. I observe her gesture, and the way her expression change. Her eyes... It's lifeless yet still beautiful.
She gave a half-smile. "No." She shook her head.
In that very moment, I suddenly felt that I want to protect her, I want to put a smile on her lips, I want her to be happy no matter what.
I gave her a gentle smile, "you're beautiful."
Fuck! Lumabas bigla sa bibig ko! I bit my lower lip and shut my eyes tightly. Ano na lang ang iisipin nya? I avoided her gaze and face the road in front of us.
I heard her chuckle. My eyes widened so I immediately face her.
"Thank you," she replied as she smiled at me genuinely.
The corner of my lips turned up. Pakiramdam ko ay malaking achievement agad sa akin na mapangiti sya sa simpleng salita.
I cleared my throat and speak.
"I already call a taxi, sabay na tayong umuwi, kung okay lang sayo?" nag-aalangan kong sabi.
"Yeah, it's fine, thanks," she answered like she's comfortable with my presence.
Nang dumating ang taxi ay inuna muna namin syang ihatid even though mas malayo ang bahay nila sa amin. Tinanong ko rin ang facebook account nya para maka-chat sya.
Nang maka-uwi ay nakatanggap agad ako ng notification. She accepted my friend request. And I can't help myself but smile.
I stalked her and went to her photos. My smile slowly fade as I saw a picture of her with a man. Isang taon na ang lumipas.
“Will I be able to meet you again?”
As I read the painful caption, I felt a fang in my chest. Walong salita ngunit ang bigat ng dating. Now I understand why I want to protect her and put a smile on her lips. Gaano man kasakit ang naranasan nyang pasakit, I want to replace it with happiness, I want her to embrace the life full of joy. I want her to forget the past. I want her heart to be heal and move on.
And in order to do that, I want to be on her side.
HINDI mahirap sa akin na malaman ang mga gusto nyang gawin, ang mga paborito nya, at ang mga ayaw nya. Araw-araw at walang palya akong nagbibigay ng cheese cake na palagi kong sinasamahan ng isang pirasong white tulip at smiley face na nakalagay sa sticky note.
"Alam mo, Kian? Konti na lang iisipin ko nang may gusto ka sakin," she joked as she burst out into laugh. I chuckled lightly.
Zia is the dream of many men. She's the ideal woman for many. A kind-hearted person, na nakakatakot saktan. When you're with her, all you have to do is be honest, tatanggapin ka nya, even your flaws and imperfections.
