The Gay Hero That Dissapeared (UA x Depressed Gay Reader)

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⚠️ TW depression, an edgy boi ⚠️
The next day, I woke up in a pool of my own sweat, but I was used to that by now. I went to school, and........ Nothing was normal. Everyone felt distant. Or sad. And after English, there was hero training. Great, a weakness of mine. We got to a place called the USJ training site. I don't know what it stood for, but it was a pretty cool place. All Might wasn't here, despite what we were told, but strangely, everything went well. We trained. We rescued other students from burning buildings, or shipwrecks or stuff. But even with that, I still felt like something was wrong. I guess I just expected a villan attack? I dunno. I had suffered through a lot when my parents were around, and now they just........ Weren't. And the villan attacks stopped when they died.

You don't REALLY think that, right? You're not safe from villans just because your parents are gone.

My eyes stung, but I didn't show it. And suddenly, someone came up to me with a worried expression. Yaoyorozu.

"Y/N-kun? Can we speak privately please?"

This melted my heart. And not in the awwwwwwww adorable way. I mean it melted it with shame and guilt.

"S-sure Yao-chan. But after the class."

"Ok. Thank you."

We continued training, and by the time we were done, I was a sweaty, exhausted mess. When we got back to school, I lugged myself to the bathroom, um........ Did my business, washed my hands, then went to Yaoyorozu.

"Yao-chan? What's up?"

"Well......... Y/N-kun? Are you mad at me? I would understand if you were. I tattled on you to Kirishima and Mr aizawa."

Strangely, I WAS mad. I wanted my self-harm to remain a secret, not to have everyone in the world and their mother know it. I wanted to cuss the world out. I wanted to sleep and never wake up, since it would've been better for everyone. I wanted to do all that, and even though I felt selfish for it, I was also mad at people for thinking that them, lying and saying that they love me, would somehow magically cure my depression. Well news flash, it doesn't. I felt trapped.

You know what you need? Some torture. You need to be strapped to an electric chair, and then zapped with all its force until you died. Or you needed to be burned by todoroki, then frozen by him. You need to be dead.

"Yao-chan?"

"Y-yes Y/N-kun?"

I shot her what was certainly an ugly death glare.

"Never tattle again. I TRUSTED YOU. YOU FOUND OUT ABOUT MY SECRET, THEN IMMIDEATLY TATTLED TO KIRISHIMA AND MR AIZAWA. YOU CAN'T KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT, HUH?! WELL LEARN TO KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT SOMETIMES!! DON'T JUST PRANCE AROUND TELLING EVERYONE'S SECRETS!!! IF THEY TRUST YOU ENOUGH TO TELL YOU ABOUT THEIR INSECURITIES AND ISSUES, DON'T BETRAY THEM!!!"

I almost slapped her but stopped myself in time, and I put a hand on her cheek gently, the two of us crying, then attempted a smile.

"I-i'm sorry. I didn't mean-"

She cut me off and hugged me so tightly, I couldn't breathe.

"I-i'm sorry Y/N-kun!! I'm so so sorry, I didn't mean to tattle, it's just........ I was worried about you. And you clearly needed our help."

I laughed slightly/harshly, then patted her head. Her hair was soft and nice, and I wanted this moment to last forever.

"It's fine. But Yao-chan?"

I took a deep breath. Leap of faith time.

Nonononono don't tell her, it'll just burden her more-

"I'm gay."

She took it well.

"That's alright. You can love whoever you want, Y/N-kun. I admit I'll never truly understand, but I don't mind if you're gay."

I laughed again. After all that happened, it felt good to finally just laugh at something genuinely funny. I was so scared and worried about her finding out, and it ended up being great.

"Th-thanks Yao-chan. You're really amazing."

"Um also, Y/N-kun? What's your quirk? It's clearly not transformation type, or mutant type. So it's emitter type."

"Well......... I guess you could call it that. It's mind reading. I can read people's mind, and the range expands to whoever is about 50 meters from me. The only problem, I can't turn it off."

"Oh. That sounds like torture."

"It's similar. It's like millions of loud people with megaphones, screaming into your ear and saying mean or nice stuff."

"Hm........ Can you describe it better? And do you have any coping mechanism?"

"Well, I have my headphones on at all times when I'm with people, so I can concentrate."

"That's cool! What am I thinking right now?"

I wish I could help Y/N-kun. He seems so withdrawn and sad. And he's hurting himself and worrying me.

I frowned, trying to look annoyed, but it didn't work.

"Oh c'mon Yao-chan, you don't need to help me."

"Haha, so you really can read my mind! Ok, which number am I thinking of?"

4.

"Four."

"Wow, you're amazing Y/N-kun! C'mon, let's go to lunch and you can tell the others. Not necessarily about your gayness, but about your quirk. Ok?"

"Ok."