The Gay Hero That Dissapeared (UA x Depressed Gay Reader)

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⚠️TW depression, mentions of self-harm and mentions of attempted suicide⚠️

(Y/N POV)
I got back to school a week later, still kinda stiff from the injuries. No one treated me differently. No one hated me. No one laughed at me for being suicidal or shit. Truly, UA was a wonderful school. I went up to Todoroki-san, and I could hear his weird thoughts.

Was she with him the whole time he was passed out?! Did they kiss?! Is he stealing her away from me?!

Strangely, I knew what was going on. I went up to him and put a hand on his shoulder.

"Hey."

(Todoroki POV)

I was in the hallways, buried in thought. I couldn't shake the feeling that Y/N was stealing Yaoyorozu from me. I wanted her, not him. Who did he think he was, pretending to be gay?! I stopped moving and thought about it more.

Was she with him the whole time he was passed out?! Did they kiss?! Is he stealing her away from me?!

Y/N came up to me and put a hand on my shoulder, snapping me back to reality.

"Hey."

"Oh, hi Y/N. What's up?"

"Nothing much. Um so listen........ I kinda heard your thoughts. It was hard not to. And well........ First of all, I truly am gay. I'm not faking it. I've had the biggest crush ever on you ever since the year started, and I only stopped crushing on you when I handed out my suicide notes. But........ Dude. You're talking about Yao-chan, right?"

I blushed. That kid's mind-reading abilities are incredible.

"Y-yeah. I am. And I feel like you're stealing her away from me."

"No."

He hugged me, which was kinda nice.

"Listen, Todoroki-san? I'm not stealing anyone away from you. If you like Yao-chan, I'll be on your side all the way. She's just my best friend. Nothing more, I swear on my quirk."

I smiled. I could tell he was telling the truth, even without reading his mind.

"Ok. Thanks Y/N. And actually....... Can you go to Yaoyorozu and ask her about it? Y'know, about me?"

He laughed, then kissed my cheek.

"Sure, Todoroki-san."

He walked away.

(Y/N POV)

I got to Yao-chan and smiled.

"Hello Y/N-kun. You look excited. It's nice to see you like this after what you did."

Which scared me half to death.

"Thanks Yao-chan. Umm....... So Yao-chan? Just spill. You like Todoroki-san, right? And I mean like like."

She blushed horribly, and the only person around was Jirou, who smirked at Yao-chan.

"Ooh, Yaomomo, I think we finally cracked the case, thanks to detective Y/N!"

"Y-yes, ok. I........ I really really like Todoroki-san."

She blushed even harder, like a tomato, which was adorable.

"R-romantically."

I smiled, then hugged her.

"Aww, Yao-chan, there's nothing to be embarrassed about!"

"Yeah. Being embarrassed about it really isn't rockin'. For example, I'm in love with the idiot Kaminari."

I gasped.

"Ooh, confessions!"

"W-well....... Wh-what about you, Y/N-kun?! Do you have a secret crush we should know about?"

They both smirked at me and got closer, and I was probably blushing even harder than Yao-chan now.

"W-well......... Yao-chan, what a rude question!"

She giggled, but she didn't know how serious this was for me. I didn't want this to turn into a silly, dumb game. I want to help them be together, and now I have Todoroki and Yao-chan to help be together, along with Jirou and Kami! I sighed.

"Nah. I don't have anyone special."

I ran away before they could ask me more questions. I sat down at a staircase somewhere and buried my face in my knees. I missed my headphones. They were crushed by the fall. The attempt seemed like it was just yesterday. And the amount of guilt and sadness I feel from it can't just be covered in a few words. From a scale of 1-10, 1 being not guilty at all, and 10 being I wanna die because I tried to die, I would put it at a solid infinite. I was infinitely guilty. And I could hear everyone's thoughts. The repairs company said that they'd make me some new headphones in a week's time, but until then I'd have to hear everyone's thoughts RUSHING into my head, like a million different megaphones being screamed at into your head. It was hell........ I didn't know if I'll ever be able to survive this.........

Suddenly, I was at piece again. It was like having my headphones again, just better. I felt two warm, soft, gentle hands on my ears, shutting them right. Yao-chan's hands. And she smiled at me, sat down next to me and kissed my cheek.

"Hey........ Y/N-kun? It doesn't take mind-reading to realize you're having an awful day."

I giggled.

"Well........ That's an understatement. This is hell."

"And you're living through it. Y/N-kun, I'm so sorry."

She hugged me, still shutting my ears. Now, I know it seems like I was complaining to get her attention, but nah, I'm not like that. I just needed to finally complain about it.

"It's......... Just.... Let's stay like this for a while Yao-chan. Please."

"Ok."

At lunch, Yao-chan made me sit with her, Jirou, Kaminari and Todoroki, making me basically the fifth wheel, then dropped something close to me, on the table. A plate of onigiri (rice balls), sushi, grilled cheese sandwiches, and a bowl of warm Ramen. My favorite. Miso.

"Y/N-kun, you are eating these without making yourself hurl afterwards. Just eat as many as you can until you feel like you'll throw up."

I giggled, then smiled akwardly.

"O-ok. And........ Yao-chan? Everybody?"

I sniffled. I wanted to cry again, but this time from happiness.

"Th-thank you all so so much. You've been with me through my bad days and good days. I quite literally owe you my life."

Jirou smiled, then pecked me in the cheek with her earphone-jack.

"No problem Y/N. You're pretty rockin' yourself."

I smiled.

"C'mon Y/N-kun. Start eating, it's getting cold!"

I slurped down all of the Ramen, including what was inside it, and it was the most delicious thing I've ever tasted. I ate all of the rice balls, then all of the sushi, and half of the grilled cheese sandwiches before I felt kinda sick and pushed my plate away gently.

"Ok, no more."

I burped.

"Food is a satanic thing and I guess I worship satan now."

We laughed, and Yao-chan ruffled my hair, which was really nice. It felt nice to feel loved.

"Good job Y/N-kun. You had quite the appetite, huh?"

I giggled, then kept giggling. I couldn't stop, this was all too fun.

"Y-yeah, I guess almost dying does that to you."