The Gay Hero That Dissapeared (UA x Depressed Gay Reader)

5

⚠️TW self-harm⚠️

The next day, I slid my uniform on, and I didn't even bother looking at the mirror. I knew I looked like a pig, so what was the point of torturing myself even more?
I got to school pretty early, and everything was normal until we met All Might. And honestly? He was less impressive up close. He was too ripped in my opinion, but he was still AMAZING. We had to fight each other in groups of two, and just my luck, I was the only one that was singled out and was chosen to be alone. All the others were AMAZING, especially izuku, and when it was my turn, I was up against All Might himself. He promised me he'd go easy on me, but that only made me feel worse. I won somehow, and even though I won, and everyone (except Bakugou and izuku, who was at the hospital) treated me as this huge hero, I didn't feel like one. We got back to the school, and I got to the boy's bathroom, locked myself in a stall, and tried to cry, but I was so used to hiding my emotions that I couldn't cry. I spotted the razor again and took it. I rolled up my left sleeve, took the razor with my right hand, and made some small cuts. It didn't even hurt. It just felt....... Good. As though I'm finally....... In control of something. It was like the blood oozing out of my arm was all the shit that I suffered until now, just oozing out of me.

Yes, that's it....... That feels amazing, right? So why stop? Why not do this every day?

I heard a knock on the door, and Kaminari's voice.

"Hey, Y/N, bro, you here? I really need to go!"

I soaked up the blood, unrolled my sleeve, then got out. Poor Kaminari. He must've waited for me a lot. He shot inside the stall and locked the door, and I washed my hands, then left.

Everything was fine and normal until English class, which was the last class. My pencil fell, and when I reached to pick it up, my uniform sleeve rolled up a bit, and Yaoyorozu saw the cuts. She ignored them until lunch, when she took me somewhere private and scowled at me.

"You. Me. Sleepover. Today."

"Wh-what? Yao-chan, th-those cuts you saw at English, they weren't-"

"Shush. Leave the excuses for later, when we'll be at your house."

Great. Now I had Yaoyorozu worrying about me.

When we got to my place, I led her into my room and slumped on the bed. No point in excuses now. Yaoyorozu was too smart to fool.

"So."
She frowned dissapprovingly at me.
"How long have you done this?"

"W-well........ I-I had a phase during middle school when I would bite my skin, not sexually or anything, just because it felt good, but....... My parents forced me to stop. And today was the first time I actually cut myself."

Yaoyorozu hugged me, then rubbed my back comfortingly.

"Please Y/N. Please stop it. I know that it feels good, but....... Please stop it. It's not good. And it's making me worry about you. Is this because of what Bakugou said then?"

Don't you dare tell her. She'll just hate you. Plus, do you REALLY want to whine even more?

I didn't reply. I couldn't reply. I was wheezing, hyperventilating, panting, crying (FINALLY!) and basically being a bitch, but she didn't judge me for it. She tightened the hug even more and talked to me in soft, gentle tones.

"Y/N, you can do this. Just take some deep breaths. Are you cold?"
I nodded. I wasn't just cold, I felt like todoroki's ice power was engulfing me.

"Do you have a favorite blanket?"

I nodded again, then pointed to my favorite one. My Endeavor one. She took it and wrapped me in it, then kissed my forehead.

"Remember Y/N. Deep breaths."

I took some deep breaths, with Yaoyorozu gently beside me, and eventually, I managed to calm down.

"There. Better?"

She smiled at me, and I smiled back. Smiling felt nice.

"Yeah. Better."

Stop lying to her. You're not ok, you know that. You're just a brick, preventing her from flying to her freedom.

I spotted a razor on my bedside. I imagined myself taking it and cutting my veins, killing myself, and I would've done that if I was alone. But because Yaoyorozu was here with me, I couldn't. I tried anyways, and she smacked it out of my hands before I managed to cut myself.

"What the hell Y/N?! Please. Please don't do this. You have UA. You have us. We're your family. Please, don't cut yourself anymore. It might feel nice, but....... It's just making me worry about you. And making me sad."

She started crying, and I didn't know what to do. I wasn't attracted to her, I just liked her as a friend, but......... I did the only think I knew how to. I hugged her tightly.

"Yao-chan? Do you want some hot cocoa? I know how to make some....... If you need it."

Haha, hot cocoa? Yeah, as though that would help. Stop trying, burden boy. You know she hates you.

"Y-yeah. Some hot chocolate would be nice. Or some tea."

"Ok. I'll make you some tea."

I did, and we drank in silence for a bit, until we both felt sleepy and heavy. We slowly fell asleep, on my bed, snuggled together so closely, you'd think we were a couple. We weren't.