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Never Understand (23)

⚠️Describing Murder, blood⚠️

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𝒯𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝓂𝒶𝓎 𝒷𝑒𝒸𝑜𝓂𝑒 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝓉𝓉𝓁𝑒 𝒷𝓇𝓊𝓉𝒶𝓁 𝒾𝒻 𝐼'𝓂 𝒽𝑜𝓃𝑒𝓈𝓉

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He carried me to the bedroom. Walking up the stairs. The house was cold. Everything seemed cold next to Nick. I held around his neck. My legs wrapped around his waist. He was strong, Carrying me with ease. He laid me down on his soft bed before walking over to the door closing it. His room was calming. It was cold. I hugged onto his duvet.

 This house felt like heaven and hell. Everything smelled like him, But it didn't have his warmth. I wrapped my legs around the duvet, hugging onto it tightly. I felt the bed moving. '' What do you want to order? '' He asked softly. His voice clear and calm.  '' mmm... Pizza? '' I asked, looking at him. He nodded, smiling. He opened his phone, starting to order. I let go of the duvet moving over, laying my head on his chest. He let out a chuckled and played with my hair. Taking the phone with his other hand calling the pizza place. 

'' yeah, that will be everything. Thank you so much. '' He hung up, laying his phone on the bedside table. He pulled me into his embrace. Our feet tangling. I looked at him as he let out a chuckle. I nuzzled against him. I had never imagined myself laying here with him. I keep doubting myself. What in the world am I doing. I let out a sigh. Stop thinking this way, Y/n. He is right there, and he cares about you. A lot more than you ever thought someone could. '' Are you okay? '' He softly caressed my back. I looked up and smiled. '' Of course! '' I said, letting out a deep breath. Letting my body relax. '' I'm just worried about school, that's all. '' I lied, laying down. I heard him humming. '' It's gonna be fine Y/n. You'll get to see your friends. And hopefully, if your plan works, Alex and I won't get into as many fights. '' He said, looking at me. He let out another chuckle. '' I still wonder why you are here. Why just hadn't walked out with Clay or something to get away. '' He said, closing his eyes. I didn't know the answer to that either. I could've left. I could've told Clay that Nick had done worse, and he would've helped me out. But here I am, lying in his bed.

I didn't know how to answer him. There was a knock on the door. It was properly the pizza guy. Nick slid out of bed, walking out the door. I laid there, staring at the door. I could hear his loud steps as he walked down the stairs. Even tho I had spent a lot of time with Nick, It still feels like he's so distant. Almost like he was pretending to be something he's not. Everything he does is cold. He says that he loves me. But I really don't know. Can it really be that easy? I let out a sigh and rolled over, looking at the wall.  Do I even like him? This situation is insane- But for some reason, every time he does- anything at this point- I get weak in the knees. I heard the door creak open. His familiar steps. Is it love, or just some kind of sick despair? The bed moved. I sat up, seeing him sitting down. The pizza boxes in his lap. He smiled at me softly. I rubbed my eye. I would be lying if I said I wasn't tired. 

He handed me the warm box. I felt my mouth fill up with water. I hadn't had pizza in a while. Pizza was my family's go-to dish when we didn't have anything planned. I opened the box staring at the pizza before digging in. It was warm, cheesy goodness. I hummed, eating. Nick chuckled before eating himself. He paid attention a lot. Almost a little bit too much. I've started to pay attention to his behaviour around specific topics. If we are talking about Clay and George, he is calm and ready to tell stories about their past and friendship. But every time I mention Alexis. He seems to get stiff and only use one-word sentences. Something must've happened to make him have this grudge against Him. I knew Alex could be annoying sometimes but not to the point where he wouldn't talk about him. Nick is always easy to talk to unless it comes to Alex. He even talked nicely about Ranboo, Tubbo and Tommy. Even going as far as to tell me about how everything was before the groups, apparently, Wilbur and Tommy were both in the group. Wil was even the leader! But they split up cause they started talking back to the principal, Who was apparently a rich businessman or something around that area.