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Bubble bath (29)

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𝒯𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝓂𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉 𝑔𝑒𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝓉𝓉𝓁𝑒 𝓂𝑒𝓈𝓈𝓎, 𝐼'𝓂 𝓈𝓊𝓇𝑒

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I ran back inside. My heart was basically pounding out of my chest. He was really everything I could think about. At this point, Nick wasn't afraid of being blunt about his intentions. It scared me to the bone. The ground was wet. My feet sinking into it. The rain quickly started pouring down. I sped up my pace looking over my shoulder to make sure Nick wasn't following me. To be fully honest, he scared me. But in the best way. I let out a soft breath. The rain was almost calming in some way. It felt like I was crying, But the tears didn't hurt. It was just pure euphoric bliss. It almost felt like I was flying. 

My path eventually came to a stop in front of the big house once again. It looked way bigger looking up at it in that way, towering above me. I slowly twisted the doorknob. Swinging the door open. The warmth brushed at me. Almost stinging as I took steps inside. My whole body had almost shut down in some way. I had gotten so used to the cold it was the warmth that stung. I walked to Tubbo's room. His room was easy to find amongst the large halls as his door was black with a bee in the middle. I slowly opened the door seeing my two friends playing fish. 

They both smiled at me. Instantly jumping to me. Attacking me with hugs. '' Y/n! if you would've been away for 10 more minutes, I would've come looking for you! '' Ranboo said, hugging me tightly. I laughed and patted their backs. Every time I saw them, it was like we hadn't seen each other for years. I always miss them even when I'm only a few minutes away from them. 

'' Tubbo? Is it okay if I borrow your shower?- '' I asked, looking at him. The smaller instantly nodded. '' Of course! I'll grab you some towels and prep for your bath! '' He instantly stormed off, leaving only Ranboo and me in the room. 

'' Did it go okay? '' Ranboo asked, looking at me, concerned. I started to think. Nick made me feel so helpless yet so protected. His smile made my heart flutter. And he smelled like soft cologne. He made me feel like I was in a wonderland. But his warmth could quickly turn into bursts of flaming rage. Like the whole fantasy could end up burning down to the ground. I looked up at Ranboo, who waited for my answer. '' It went okay. He mostly just came to apologize for what happened at school. '' I said, putting my hands into my pockets. My breath was shaky, Almost to the point of it hurting to breathe. It's hard to be so in love with such a crazy person.

Ranboo just nodded. There wasn't much he could say. It felt like I couldn't get Nick's touch off my body. I gulped. If I could wash him off in the shower, things would be easier. Tubbo ran back into the room. '' It's all ready for you out there! '' He smiled and walked up to Ranboo, putting an arm around the Taller boy's waist. Tubbo and Ranboo weren't wearing suits. It was almost the only thing they wore. Ranboo was wearing a T-shirt, some jeans and a flannel. Tubbo was wearing a polo shirt and some jeans. 

I took a deep breath before making my way through the halls. Nick was plastered to my mind. What if I actually want him. What if he suddenly doesn't want me anymore- and I'm just there. Then ill be the fool. I sped up, walking towards the bathroom. The door was wide open—the clear cloudy air seeping out. I closed the door behind me, making sure to lock it. It wouldn't be good if someone accidentally came in. The water was warm. Tubbo had prepared a bubble bath. It smelled nice, Lavender?... 

I took off my clothes, making sure to fold them. Placing them down by the sink. I let out a sigh before getting into the tub. The Bubbles covered my body like a misty fog. I leaned my head back. I rarely got to relax these days. Everything is so stressful, and a lot can happen in just a matter of seconds. I haven't spoken to Alex since that day in the hallway. I haven't even felt him staring at me like I usually do. Things have just started blinding me. Everything felt like it was too much. My eyes were heavy, almost as if they were forcing themselves closed. 

Oh, Nick... What has this come to...

I let myself sink into the water. It felt like I was floating right until the soap started to burn my eyes. Bad idea- bad idea- I gasped, letting myself breathe. Who could've known. What do I even do with you? You always know where I am. It always feels like you are watching me. I can almost always tell what you are thinking, what you've been plotting. At this point, I can see right through you. I can see it on your face when I finally dare look back. You would do anything just to hear me breathe. Those eyes burn. Almost worse than your touch.

I closed my eyes. You should've never crossed my mind- I fall in every time! I should know better. He legit took me out of my own home! It's just- Twisted pleasure. Please let me go- Please, please. You keep telling me you love me- It's too sweet. The taste becomes so bitter. I got out of the Tub. Drying myself with one of the towels. Hearing the water pouring down the drain. I hoped a bath could rinse him off my body. I just wish I could rinse him off my mind.

I had forgotten to bring clothes- why am I so stupid! I grabbed my phone. Quickly texting tubbo.

Y/n: Hey Tubbo! I have... uh forgotten to bring clothing. Could you please bring me some- please?

Bee boy: Of course, Y/n! I'll be right there!

I could instantly hear him running towards the bathroom. He knocked before opening the door slightly. Sliding clothing through the small gap. I couldn't help but laugh at his struggle. He respected my privacy so much that he would give himself trouble. He finally slid the clothing through. '' There we go! Ranboo, and I will be in the living room! '' He said before closing the door, letting me get dressed. 

I quickly finished up, opening the door and walking into the long hallway. I could clearly hear Tubbo giggling. Following his voice was surprisingly easy. Tubbo and Ranboo were cuddling on the couch watching some animated cartoon. They were both wearing pyjamas. Kind of like the one Tubbo gave to me. Ranboo's was a black basic shirt accompanied by some black shorts. Tubbo's was green with a little bee on the tit pocket- He also had on a pair of shorts. Tubbo had given me a greyish set that looked like the one he wore. I sat down beside them, ruffling my wet hair a bit.

'' You smell clean,'' Ranboo said, looking over at me. Tubbo started to laugh. I couldn't help but join him. '' What a compliment there, Mr Enderman! '' I laughed, leaning back. Ranboo just sighed, looking at the tv, hoping that Tubbo and I would quiet down at some point. We eventually switched over to a movie. I could feel myself choking up every once in a while. It really reminded me of Nick and Alex. The two guys kept fighting over the main character, doing ridiculous stuff. The only difference there was that one of the guys were actually good. 

I sighed. I feel so confused. I don't know what to do. Is it because I'm scared of him not loving me anymore? Even tho he says that, he does. He's lost my trust. He opened a door that I can't seem to close again. The feeling really never stops. He's setting me on fire...

Fire is a natural symbol of life and passion, though it is the one element in which nothing can actually live... 

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{1386 Words} Sorry for the long wait! I'm giving myself some times to write these chapters