Sander sides oneshots

Nobody

Tw: Suicide, mental break down, severe loneliness, self-deprecation

Angst

Implied Demus

This is going to be in first person. In this Remus says he loves roman THIS IS IN A STRICTLY SIBLING WAY. Inspired by the song Nobody by Mitski.
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    "Nobody, nobody, nobody..." As I hear the music playing I feel overwhelmed with anger, sadness and loneliness. Why did Janus leave for them? Why is it affecting me like this? I should be used to loneliness. Shouldn't I? But I haven't been alone in so long I had Virgil and Janus but they both left for them. Why? Am I that unwanted. I know I'm extra but I can't help that it just who I am. But not even my own brother was willing to say with me.

     Should I just end it? No one would notice or care and all I do for Thomas is hurt him. "Give me one good movie kiss and I'll be alright." I sang along with the music. Nobody would be willing to even do that. "Nobody nobody nobody nobody no-" I do it. By the end of the song I made up my mind. As I walked to my room I tried no to look at the bored up doors of the old dark sides. I entered my room and got a piece of paper and a pen.
            
   Dear Virgil, Roman and Janus,
                                                            I know you probably don't care but it would be rude not to even say goodbye. Emo I know you're probably wondering why I'm including you in this but we were close at one point I know I fucked that up and I'm sorry but that's just who I am a fuck up. You used to say that all the time.

Roman my dear brother do you remember why we split. I wish I did. Even after the spilt we had so much fun as kids didn't we? Paying hero and villian coming up with story's. I know I may not have acted like it but I still love you brother.

Now on to you snake man I have a question for you why did you leave me for them. You knew they would never except me like you and Virgil how could they? You said you loved me were you lying about that. Of course I shouldn't be surprised at that should I. Either way it doesn't matter.

Goodbye to you all sincerely,
                                                     Remus.

I wonder if they will ever even find this. I place the letter by my bed and went in to the bathroom where the shower was running. this is it finally all of the thought with stop, all the pain finally gone.

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If I forgot any trigger warning please let me know and I'll add them.