Sander sides oneshots

LAMP

Tw:Self-harm, self-hatred/self-deprecating, homophobic slurs, cussing, transphobia.

Angst with some fluff at the end

Au:High school and trans Virgil

As usual please tell me if I forgot any trigger warnings.
😺Patton
🧠 Logan
🎭 Roman
🌩️ Virgil
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Faggot they won't except you they never really accepted you when you came out as gay why would they expect you saying you're trans.
You're lying to yourself anyway. You don't believe yourself so why would they. Don't do it. You're not trans your faking it for attention!

Shut up please just shut up. I was sitting in the bathroom crying with a lighter I don't want to undo the progress I've made so far Patton would be disappointed so would Logan and Roman I-i can't disappoint them.

You already do. Do it you pathetic wast of oxygen.

But I've been so good for so long I have a years worth of progress. I just what them to know that's not bad they love me the will except me.

No they don't you idiot the are lying just like your parents.

Ok maybe my parents lied but my grandparents love me and Patton would never lie about loving someone.

If you're grandparents love you so much why do the misgender and dead name you. If they can lie so can Patton.   They don't love you. Do it!

I-

I'm you idiot you know no one cares so stop holding on to that last shred of hope and do it. No one cares. The will not expect you.

I gave up and lit the lighter as the flame got closer to my arm.

"Veronica it's time for dinner!" I heard my grandma call.

Her calling me that was like a knife through the heart I came out to her and my grandpa about 7 months ago and she just ignored me and said because I like makeup to much to be a guy. "Coming!" I wish she believed me.

After dinner I looked back to the bathroom.

Go do it.

No maybe tomorrow but right now I'm to tired. I laid down as I got a text from Roman on the group chat.

🎭"Goodnight my beautiful boyfriends.❤️❤️❤️" Oh yeah they think I'm cis good thing they've never met my grandparents. The others responded.

😺"Goodnight kiddos!💙💙💙"

🧠"Goodnight my loves." I didn't have the heart to respond. 

😺"Virg what's wrong we know you see are texts why aren't you responding?"

Look you made them worried. You did it on purpose didn't you. You just wanted attention. You selfish fag. 

No I didn't I would never do that I would never. As my phone started to go off rapidly I realized I haven't responded.

🎭"Are you ok stormcloud why haven't you responded?"

🧠"You know you don't have to tell us anything if you don't want to but we're always here for you."

🌩️"Ik Im fine I promise just got lost in thought."

Liar.

😺"Are you sure you're alright kiddo a lot of your thoughts aren't nice"

🌩️"Yea Pat I'm sure."

Liar!

Shut up your the one that wants me to lie so shut the fuck up.

But you're listening to me when you know it's wrong. You're worthless, pathetic waste of spaces.

Whatever I'm just going to watch conspiracy videos.

I woke up to my phone going off. It was Patton video calling me I mush have fallen asleep.

🌩️"Hey Pat."

😺"Hey kiddo how are you?"

🌩️"I'm fine Pat." I should tell at least him. "Well I actually have something to tell you."

😺" What is it kiddo?"

🌩️"I-fuck this is harder than it should be." He smiled softly.

😺"Take your time kiddo I'll be here for you no matter what you say I promise." I let out a shake breath.

🌩️"I-im trans." As soon as I said it I started to panic even more "I'm so sorry I didn't tell you guys sooner I get I you don't want to date me I know a lot of people wouldn't I'm-"

😺"Kiddo it's alright of course I still want to date you I love you I'm assuming you're female to male."

🌩️"Oh I-i love you too and yeah I am."

😺"I'm so glad you felt comfortable enough to tell me do you want to tell the others or are you not ready to?"

🌩️"Do you think they will care?"

😺"Of course they won't kiddo they love you too!"

🌩️"O-ok you can add them too the call."

😺"Ok kiddo."

Prince charming and Logan were added to the call.

🎭"Hey Pat hey stormcloud what do you need?"

😺"Virgil has something to say go ahead Virg."

🌩️"I-ummm here I go I'm trans FtM and am really sorry I didn't tell you guys sooner." They all smiled

🎭"We're so glad you told us Virgil."

🧠"We love you Virg."

                                                                          

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Honestly I don't usually make characters trans because I wouldn't want to put anyone through what I go through but I need to vent. Like I said if I forgot an trigger warnings tell me and I'll put them in. Also please if you're feeling that way talk to someone it's not selfish have a nice night/day/afternoon.