Sander sides oneshots

Moxiety

Tw: Suicide, Sexual abuse, Mental abuse, Verb abuse, overall toxic/abusive relationship, unsympathetic Patton, mature/sexual content,fat shaming/making a comment about gaining weight
Angst

Disclaimer I do not view Moxiety as a toxic ship or Patton as anything he being portrayed as. As usual if I ever got any trigger warnings tell me please.
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Please no stop, stop touching me STOP! I thought as Patton ran his hands up my body. "Pat I'm really not in the mood." I said in a quiet voice.

He scoffed and grabbed my hips tighter "Shut the fuck up you whore." I winced at him calling me that he knows I hate it."What's the matter slut don't like the truth." The words spat out of his mouth like venom.  At this point I just gave up struggling. When we first got together about 3 years ago he was super nice and respectful but as the months past the facade melted away and by about year of dating him he started to get abusive. 

Just end it all if you want it to stop so badly. No there has to be a better way out. I felt Patton's hand grab my face harshly "Did you hear me slut?" He said in a stern angry voice. I hesitantly shook my head no. I yelped out in pain as he harshly grab my hair "Well start you know I don't like repeating myself," he sighed and pushed my mouth towards his dick " I said suck you stupid bitch."  I hesitantly did what he said. As we continued I kind of went in to autopilot. I woke up to him naked the next day luckily I woke up before he did I got dressed and went to make breakfast Patton gets angry when I don't of course he gets angry over a lot of things I do or say so.

Well it's your fault for saying or doing stupid things you know you're lucky he tolerate you're stupid ass. It's your fault he gets angry you, deserve the treatment you get and if you hate it so much you should just END IT ALL. I know, I know I deserve it all I know I should really just end it.

"Actually doing something useful for once I see." I heard Patton say. I put on a fake smile.

"Good morning Patton breakfast will be done in just a minute." I said in the sweetest voice I could muster. He sat down at the table if I where to commit suicide how would I do it. Well probably well Patton is at work and maybe with the old pills I have, yeah that would probably work. As I plated his food and went to play mine he smacked my ass.

"I think maybe you should skip breakfast today. I mean wouldn't want you to get fat." He said with a snicker. I immediately got self-conscious he knows Im insecure about he knows so why does he say it. Because it's true. I put the food down and clean up the kitchen. As I heard the front door close I let out a sigh of relief.

"He's gone." Do I. No there has to be another way out there has to be. Ok the what is this other way? Are you going to the Roman? Logan? Janus? Remus? Thomas? You really think any of them will believe you? Well I- You don't have another plan do you so just do it. It's the only way out. Fine your right I need to just to it and it is the only way out. I should probably start with a note.

Dear Roman, Logan, Thomas and anyone else who cares,
                                       I'm sorry I just couldn't take it anymore. Now your probably wondering take what? The abuse and since this is going to spark the question of what abuse the abuse Patton put me through now you may not believe me and I know this you don't have to but please don't blame yourself if you're going to blame anyone blame me or him. Me for being to much of a coward to tell you guys what he was doing and I suppose it was because I didn't have the courage to tell you as it what was happening was partially my fault. And ask him what you should blame him for. I know this is quite short but I don't want any tears shed for me there's no need for them this was my choice so please don't cry but don't repress your emotions either Logan I'm looking at you. Once again I'm sorry please don't cry this was my choice.
              Love,
                         Virgil.

Welp time for the finale. As I unscrew the lid to the bottle I take a beep breath hear I go.....
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As usual if I missed any trigger warnings tell me and I'll add them. Also I most definitely do not support anything Patton said. Have a nice day/night/afternoon.