Wanting You. | Jikook

Scared

Jimin Pov.

"W-WHAT!?" I stare at Tae as he looked a little suprised.

"Shhhhh!!!" He puts his finger on his mouth to gesture to me to quite down.

"Don't shush me! What's the reason behind that question?" I angrily whispered to Tae.

"Well... Just curiosity." He shrugged.

"There has to be a reason." I say with a pout.

"Well, I don't know. I have this hunch or feeling." He looks off to the side. It seems like he doesn't even know himself. I sigh.

"Tae... You know me. I'm not into that type of thing." I blush and look off to the side with total sincerity.

"Humans can have feelings, it's normal. And those feelings don't have to have boundaries." He says. I look back at him and smile.

"Well... don't worry about it, k? I've never thought about him in that light and I never will. I don't even know what having those feelings even mean or feel like. Just don't worry." I smile at him finally. He looks into my eyes for awhile and he sighs finally convinced.

"Alright, well. It's a little late I'm gonna head home." Taehyung suddenly gets up and gathers his things and throws them inside his bag.

"O-oh." I say a bit suprised. "I'll see you on Monday."

"Yup! See ya!" He waves as a final gesture, then he walks away, towards the cafes door. I look at the door a bit and turn my gaze to the window, I guess it is getting a bit late. Although it's not a school night I still want to get some rest. I start to pack up my things to head out. As I finish and walk out the door, I stop. My thoughts bombard my mind like a cloud blocking the sky.

It can't be. I don't. I can't like him. I just can't. There's rules in society and I don't want to get hurt and I don't want to hurt him. It can also be one sided... EVEN IF I LIKE HIM... Which is a big if. He even might be disgusted with the though of being with another boy. So what if I hang around him most of the time it meant nothing, just friendship. That's it. So I got to keep this thought in a corner of my mind like the rest of the  useless thoughts. I'll have to hide this far away.

I sigh, shakily and begin to walk again. I put my hands in my pockets and stop again. I squeeze my hand and feel the paper. I squeeze it until it's ran out of breath and life. My face gets hot as I stare into the vast nothing and space out. My eyes burn. I'm tearing up. A feeling washes over me... fear.

I'm scared...

Jungkook Pov.

I left the library place already and I'm on my way home. Enjoying the beautiful sky above me. But I crack a smile as I remember Jimin again.

Park Jimin.

I laugh a little, knowing that I might look weird or even crazy. Is it normal to think about a person this much. I even enjoy his company in my dreams. Not to mention the fact that Sam-San's presence is bothering me. I finally realize what I'm thinking and stop. I groan as I rub my hair messily.

Why am I like this?! Overthinking, being so...anxious. Somethings happening to me, but I should stop. BOUNDARIES!!! I have them aswell as others and I gotta realize that sooner or later.

My thoughts distract me well as I made it to the apartment building and I quickly head up to my room. I unlike the door and walk in locking it back up. Rushing to my room and slamming my body on the bed. I turn, to look at the ceiling. I stare at it... thinking to myself.

Why am I like this?

What's making me feel this way?

So anxious all the time, is so unlike me. Well I mean I'm already anxious but... why am I so anxious I can't clear my head for one second.

What are you doing?...

Park Jimin...

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