Marchters of Spinjitzu

Day Two

Prompt: Inspired by a song

Ship: hints of Colria

So, for a little bit of background information, I'm not using my main OC (or my series OC as I call her, aka Maria Walker-Jones), I'm using my Movie verse OC, Maria Jones. I explained most of the events that occur in this oneshot in part two of "Father I need you" but some of the backstory has changed since then. I recommend you read that first, but it's not required. Also, I know I said in the description (and I think in the introduction) "mostly fluffy oneshots" and then I come up with angst for prompts that don't need to be angst-

Anyway, enjoy my first angst prompt!

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It's been a rough few months for Maria. What, with work piling on her, exam season around the corner and two small girls to look after. It's been difficult to keep herself together, her mood dropping dramatically and threatening to drag her back into her dark place. A place she'd only just crawled out from. She didn't want to go back. She couldn't go back there. She couldn't leave Gemma, her mum, her cousins, Lloyd, Cole, her bandmates and everyone who knew her. She couldn't do that to them, not after everything they've done to help her.

Sitting cross-legged in front of her full-length mirror, she grabs her phone and opens Spotify, hitting shuffle before throwing her phone onto her bed.

I lost my faith, made my mistakes

Sighing, she grabs her blending sponge and starts blending in some foundation. She's definitely made a lot of mistakes in her life, all of which she regrets terribly. The aftermath of them was always the same. It would drag her self-esteem down and resulted in her locked up in her room all day.

I Gotta find a way to make it easy, I'll be better on my own believe me

When things got really bad after her father left, she'd wanted to run away, live out by herself. Dropping her blending sponge, she grabs her concealer.

Pain I hold back, can't live like that

Dapping the concealer under her eyes, she grabs her blending sponge and rubs it in. When her father left, she hid her pain to help her mum and sister, keeping all her emotions bottled up inside her. It made her life even worse.

Yeah, I made my peace with all of the sorrow and now I'm living for tomorrow

She learned to accept her fate. From a young age, she learned about loss and how it affected her family. She saw how the loss of her uncle affected her father when she was just two years old. She didn't experience loss and grief until her father passed when she was fourteen. They all knew it was coming, but nothing could have prepared her for it.

I'm a girl with a new face and a life that's been changed

Opening her bronzer palette, she grabs the brush and dusts it across her cheekbones. Her heart sunk as the lyric bounced across her room. Her life had changed, yes it turned out worse than she ever dreamed of. But she changed too.

You know? You know? You know?

No one truly understood her pain. None of her friends had ever experienced death the same way she had. Lloyd didn't even know who his father was and she hadn't met Cole at the time. But Cole had experienced death like she had. He understood her and her feelings. He helped her through her grief, and she helped him through his.

I was a little bit lost, but I'm not anymore
I was a little bit hurt, but I'm not anymore

Picking up her eye shadow brush, she closes her eyes and dusts the pale shade across her eyelids. It was on the thirteenth of August when she experienced her first breakup. He'd messaged her that morning, confessing he'd been cheating and he didn't want to be with her anymore. Her father had died two days before that message.