Love me! [illumi X Oc]

Chapter 4

(Illumi's pov)

She is so odd. It's taking everything in me right now to not kill her.

"Hmm?" Hisoka hummed slowly in entertainment. "May I have the pleasure?" he smiled. My eyes dragged away from Arisu and I looked at Hisoka.

"You have gon, I'll have this girl," I lowly said. Hisoka's reading abilities were still wonderfully frightening.

"Her name is Arisu Suzuki" he hums, "her past is very little to unknown, has 2 siblings, 1 died because of her mother, her dad was killed by unknown people. And that is about all I know about her, her fathers' name is unknown as well as her mother's."

First, why do I care second, "how do you know this, Hisoka?" I ask.

"oh, I have my ways. That's about all I know about her though" he turns his attention to the walking girl and then looks at me. "If you ask me... You'd be putting her out of her misery" he smirks. Once he finished his sentence he walked away leaving me to myself. I also walk away, but I decide to follow arisu. She's struck a chord I didn't know I had, now this melody in my heart won't stop playing. It's rage that I felt, along with another feeling I don't understand. The first day I saw her in the hunter exams I cursed out loud and that's how I met Hisoka. I don't believe in a higher being other than my own power but I had found myself cursing at an unknown source that day. The girl I was trying to forget just appeared in front of me again. The same disgusting feelings arose in me, the dirtiness I feel when I'm around her makes me feel as though I should be cleansed. I have come to the conclusion that the only way to get rid of this feeling is to be so kind and kill her. I feel a strong force coming from my left and I quickly grab the hand that's coming at me with my broken arm. When I pull the arm to uncover who the body belongs to I see that it's Arisu. I grip her wrist as soon as I realize that it was her and she squirms under me, bringing out a ting of joy within me. Usually I don't find pleasure in hurting or killing others but she's one of the rare occasions I do.

"Illumi," there it was, that feeling again, this time everything went silent. Her voice was just a distant buzz, the slight breeze that was blowing got louder than it appeared to be and like a sudden punch to the stomach, I came back to my senses. "I'm sorry I didn't realize it was you.. Oh my your arm, to make it up to you can I help you tend to it?" she was so close, yet her voice was so far away, all I could hear was my name coming out of her mouth. I let go of her arm and attempted to walk away but her small figure appeared in front of me, once again I was provoked to kill her right here and now.

What stopped me was feeling my bone be cracked back into place. "It's been broken for almost an hour and you still hadn't popped it back in place?" she scolded me as if we were long-term acquaintances.

"What's it to you?" I asked while looking at her. She smiled and tended to my wounds. Apparently, she knew how to tend to a broken arm.

"My younger siblings always break their arm" she gave me a sad excuse of a smile and continued tending my wounds. She so often looked up at me and into my eyes, I did the same to her occasionally and she would look away with a funny expression.

"I didn't know you wanted to be a hunter'" she says, and I make eye contact with her again hoping to get the same reaction but instead I'm met with hopeful eyes. I engage in the conversation.

"I didn't"

"Ooh then why are you here"

I looked at her, everything about her told me she already knew my reasoning but she just wanted to have a conversation. This is what I mean by her being odd. Most of the time people don't even want to talk to me and when they do they give up when I don't reply or look at them.

"I came for business-related things" I looked away from her and let her see the side of my face. 

She nodded and when I finally looked back at her I saw that she looked excited to be talking to me. I don't even want to kill her anymore. I just want her to stop making that face. Hope is for the weak, hope is for people who like to be let down. I don't like to be let down so I just do things with no expectations.

"By the way, your punches suck," I think out loud. She smiles and nods.

"I know, punches have never been my specialty" I look at her and raise an eyebrow.

"You did fine when you were fighting that other person" I point out. I see her hiding a smile and she looks away from me.

"Right, you saw that. Why did you put on that disguise?" I now noticed that she was done fixing my arms. She sat next to me. How long ago did she finish? And how did I not notice? My phone then began vibrating in my pocket and I picked it up. It was my father, Killua is indeed back home. I can already see the punishments awaiting him back home. I feel bad for him but he brought this upon himself, he should be happy that he's the one taking it up. I mean If it was me I would be very happy, but it's not me because.. Well maybe I just wasn't fit for the position.

A couple of seconds into the phone call I see Arisu walking away and I quickly finish the conversation and end the phone call. I watch her as she leaves and I'm tempted to say something, anything but I don't. I stand up and walk in the opposite direction of her. What to do now? I think there's a liquor store around here. My schedule was cleared for the next two days so there was nothing for me to do. Usually, I don't drink but for some reason, I felt like doing so today, like a celebration or something.

I walked to the store and bought myself 6 bottles, I wanted to actually get drunk today. I could drink 2 full bottles and barely feel tipsy. I know it's not good for my health, that's why I rarely get drunk. I found a random hotel and sat on the ground to start my drinking. I chuckled to myself as I took a swing. I'm now the lowlife drunk I killed months ago. 

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♧ A/n ♧

People scare me.

Until next time :)