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the next morning i woke up on the couch surrounded by literally everyone. after coreys death we all just wanted to stay as close as possible which meant no one sleeping in their rooms or at their own houses

"morning" kian says from the other end of the couch

"hey keeks" i say

"are you gonna put a statement out about corey today?" he asks

"uhh probably not why, are you?" i ask

"oh i forgot you were gone this week. yeah we all are" he says

"do i have to?" i say

"only if you want to." he says shrugging

i didn't know if i wanted to or not. i couldn't even articulate my feelings about this all to my friends or hoyfriend let alone 12 million people on my instagram

"morning yall" jc says coming back with loads of pancakes and coffee

"wow i love you" i say standing up on the couch and grabbing a bag from him sitting back down and pigging out

"do they let you eat that while you're still filming the show?" jack (avery) 's sister sydnie asks

"i eat whatever the fuck i want and you should too" i say annoyed. who the fuck says that while someones eating

"no I'm okay I'm gonna head home. i need my vegan breakfast" she says and i just roll my eyes. i never fucking liked her and neither did corey to be honest

"jack your sisters a fucking cunt" i say once the door shuts

"i know" he says making us all laugh

"grayson made a video about me" i say and everyones eyes go wide

"really?" franny asks

"whatd he say?" kian asks

"i don't know all of it cause i didn't watch it jacob did" i say

" but something along the lines of he misses me and he's sorry" i say

"well that's... nice?" crawford says

"not really, if he was really sorry he could say it to me not to all his fucking fans" i say

"yeah it's clear he only did it cause he got caught in a lie when he said you were the one who cheated" nezza says

" I'm just tired of it to be honest like he cheated on me and then a year later says I'm the one who cheated and now another year later my bestfriend dies and he puts out that bullshit like why can't he leave me alone" i say and funny enough i get a call... from ethan

"hello?" i say

"hey ada it's gray" he says and i immediately wanna hang up

"what" i say

" i heard you're dating that prick" he says

"you're gonna call me just to talk about jacob?" i say scoffing

" i don't even know why i apologized. i cheated cause i thought something was going on with you and him and you swore there wasn't and then you throw him in my face saying you guys are a couple now?" grayson says

" you didn't apologize you made a fake scripted video to make yourself look good" i say

" yeah because i fucking miss you ada. and you blocked me. and now you're dating the guy i was worried about all along which fucking sucks and it hurts" he says sadly

" grayson" i say

"yeah" he says hope lingering his voice

"i. don't. care. now leave me alone before i block ethans number too" i say hanging up. everyone was listening intensely to my conversation.