mister runaway | sope ✔️

why do i still love you?

"The sun's starting to rise," Yoongi murmured to himself as he stared off into the river, noticing the cracks of pink and orange beginning to intrude the otherwise dark skies. He had no idea how long he'd been staring off into the distance— it usually happened whenever he came to Hangang Bridge. Though Yoongi could hear the sound of the cars zooming past him, it became nothing more than static noise the longer he stared at the sky.

No matter what, Yoongi always found himself coming to Hangang Bridge, his only escape from the world around him and space where Yoongi felt at ease. This was his sacred place, a place not even Jimin knew about. A solace to rid him of the uneasiness of the outside world, a place where he could finally breathe.

Most importantly, a place where he went whenever he missed Hoseok.

Yoongi could hear his phone buzzing, knowing he was receiving countless messages from his friends, as he had been for the past couple of hours. He didn't care though— didn't have the energy to, at least not yet. He was calmer now, but he knew that if he tried responding, he'd be overwhelmed.

"I thought I'd find you here."

Though the voice was far away, Yoongi could hear every syllable crystal clear. Not trusting his ears, he whipped towards the voice, eyes widening as he realized he had heard correctly. The breath left his lungs as he drunk in the familiar figure— older but just the same. Yoongi could feel his eyes beginning to water, but he blinked the tears away.

"Hoseok."

Yoongi's voice shook as he called out Hoseok's name, a name that had become so foreign in his mouth, but familiar all the same. Hoseok remained distanced, his hands stuffed in his pockets, lips pursed as he looked away.

"Your friends are worried about you," Hoseok said. "You should tell them you're okay."

"And you?" Yoongi asked, hands curling into fists. "Are you worried about me?"

"Namjoon told me to come find you," hoseok answered, ignoring Yoongi's questions. "To make sure you're okay. This was the first place I thought of. Guess you're still the same."

Yoongi scoffed, looking away for a brief moment. Of course, Hoseok wasn't looking for him because he wanted to. Not like Hoseok actually cared. If he had, he never would have left. For the first time, Yoongi couldn't figure Hoseok out. The person he thought he knew, he didn't. As far as Hoseok and Yoongi were concerned, they were just strangers.

"Does Jay care at least?" Yoongi asked, causing Hoseok to flinch. "I mean, he was always there for me."

Yoongi had just happened to like the persona Hoseok took that made him feel wanted.

"I've run out of sorry's, Yoongi," Hoseok took a step closer, leaving only a few inches between him and Yoongi. "Besides, I'm sure you wouldn't want to hear that from me."

"Oh, the constant apologies?" Yoongi retorted bitterly. "I told you already. If you don't mean them I don't want to hear it. I thought you would have gotten the hint when I blocked you the first time."

"You didn't block my main account," Hoseok said. Yoongi scoffed, crossing his arms.

"My mistake."

Everything fell into a tense, suffocating silence. After a few moments, Yoongi spoke up again, looking at Hoseok in the eyes.

"Maybe we just weren't meant for each other." Yoongi laughed humorlessly. "I mean, look at us. You're so close, but this is the farthest we've ever felt. I thought I'd be happy to see you again, but all I feel right now is dread that you are here. Why didn't you just stay away?"