Killer [Jungkookxreader]✔

Chapter 19: Distance

Twenty six hours, twelve minutes and two seconds exactly. It's the duration of your little fugue. But, you are not an ordinary orphan anymore, half of the police of Seoul was searching you right now. Your friends are going insane like Jimin and Jisung. But the worst one is Jungkook, he didn't sleep, didn't eat, his face pale and his body lifeless, all he does is stare at the door of your apartment waiting for you to push the door.
You, you were unconscious since this lapse of time, you collapse on the street on your way to your hometown, someone had brought you to their house, the old woman taking care of you since then. You weren't that far from your building, your body was too weak to take you anywhere else. The young man who brought you, Kim Namjoon, in his house see your face in the news in the supermarket. Not minding anything anymore, he left the shop and his groceries fell in the floor. He called the police.

"What were you thinking?" Jungkook whispered scolding you as you are still lifeless in the hospital bed. The rain bringing you a wave of cold making you completely sick. Everyone was in the room even the young man who saved you on the first place. It's been twice that you are in hospital now, and it seems like it won't never stop. When this hell will end? When will I be able to walk freely knowing anyone will try to kill me for an unknown reason?...
You groan, waking up after your body took its time to rest, you still didn't want to wake up, your deep slumber giving your mind the rest it needs. At this point you don't find life useful anymore, you begin to doubt your choice that night again. And without you knowing, the second step of the killer's plan was working on you. Making you doubt of you...
"Leave... All..." You don't want to be scold, to be shouted at, you don't need any affection, you need the peace that your mind has been through the last hours.
"What...?!" Jungkook practically shouted at you, he was worries sick yet you are still being stubborn.
"Out... Let me alone,... No better let me get out of here, it is better" you stand up feeling dizziness hit you right away as you stand up. Anyone said anything, they were angry at you for not considering them. But you were tired of considering everyone.
"Are you insane?!" It was Yoongi's turn to shout at you. You have enough you were close to being crazy and it's why you needed to leave at first.
"Yes, Yoongi I am... I am tired, exhausted and crazy... You want me to tell you, I didn't want to get back home... I didn't need you to look at me like you do now... I don't want pity. I don't want to be scolded... I am well aware of what happened around me... But for once can you leave me f*cking alone? Every touch, every sweet gesture made me feel even more guilty than I already am... I'm scared as hell... I am being paranoid and I freak out... So I needed a pause. Just me and myself and I alone not thinking of the fact that I put everyone around me in danger just for one hour... So any of you have the right to scold me, I put you all first now I need time!!" It's the first time you snapped like that, it's the first time in years that you let your real feelings out, admitting them to people and to yourself. It felt like a height has been lifted from your shoulders.
They all looked at you with guilt, they thought you were being selfish, they were totally forgetting that you had the guilt pending with you. Your chest heave up and down, tears rolling down your cheeks.
"The worst is that I can't forget... I can't forget that Eden was a human and that I didn't flinch when I killed him. I can't forget that Kiyeon was my friend, I cant forget that the policemen had a family, I can't forget that this man saw his family dying. I can't forget that I put you all in danger along with innocents people because I made an error. So I don't deserve any of this now." You said it didn't change you but sometimes you think of it, not recognizing you in your act at all, was it really you or what Eden had told you... A bad person?
Anyone knew how to react, they just stare at you breaking apart, it was as if you were in a bubble that anyone could reach even the closest person to you and it kills you slowly.
"What do you need?" Jieun's voice was calm, steady but her lips quiver as she looks at you.
"I don't know anymore..." You sobbed out hurrying your face in your hands, messily crying out loud.
Seokjin, Yoongi, Taehyung and Hoseok left the room with the man who saved you. Misun opened her mouth but closed it as fast as she opened it. She left, Jieun walk out closely after.
Like always one last person stayed, he was helpless looking at you crying.
"I'm sorry... I should have came home. I'm sorry if ... I worried you" you manage to say through sobs, cough and hiccups.
"I'm sorry if I upset you and I'm... So sorry I snapped at you" you added still not looking at him too ashamed and shy.
"I'm sorry for freaking out... I'm sorry for not seeing how much you were suffering, I'm sorry if I wasn't present enough for you, I'm sorry for letting you alone at the worst moment and I'm sorry for not understanding you better" he stated with a shaky voice too. He was guilty too, he was supposed to be here and not leaving you alone, instead he was the one who leave first not insisting when you said you were fine.
You quickly hug him, he hugged back, you both cried in each others embrace, you feel the warmth of your home engulf you. At this precise minute, you know you belonged in Hus arms and nowhere else.
"Trust me..." He exhaled a breathless demand.
"Always..." You mumbled against his chest. The sound slightly muffled by his own clothes, now soaked by your tears.
"I hate seeing you crying" you told him pulling away softly and holding his face with your hands.
"I hate seeing tears staining your beautiful face too" he also take ahold of your face. The movements were natural, desires and needed as the both of of lean in, kissing each other, it was soft and sweet like you remembered.
Both of you find each other lips addicting. He begin to bite your lower lip, making you whimper softly, loving the sound he did it again making you moan this time. It was a bearable pain but not a bearable pleasure as your body react at his touch on your waist. He added his tongue in your mouth and so you did. The tip of your tongues touching every then and now making everything more exiting. You asked yourself how you have been from yelling to this. You pulled him closer tugging at his hair making him groan in your mouth, you loved everything in this precise moment, his lips against yours, the feelings and his hands on your waist. After ten minutes of a make out session, he place a single peck in your lips before resting his forehead on yours.
"I love you" three words that have such a powerful meaning, something that you feel about him, you loved every part of him, and you know that he will always be there for you in every hard tribulations life can put in your linked paths.
"I love you too" you closed your eyes enjoying the sound of his voice reciprocating your breathless confession. The feeling that he wanted to share with you since he first saw you until now.
"I love you so damn much..." If only you could capture this moment and keep it that way forever...
                          TBC...