The Glassy Sky

LISA

September 12, 1996

Thursday

I woke-up in a hospital bed only to find out that my son, Toby is in critical condition. "I wanna see my son!" I shouted. I insisted to the medical staff that I want to see my son. I know that I'm not in the right condition to negotiate right now for I feel that there are some fractions in my ribs and other parts of my body, but I still insisted that I wanted to see my boy. One of the doctor's told me that my son was in critical condition. I went there to see for myself. What have I done? I asked myself. I felt the horror when I first saw him. He was in life support system and is currently fighting for his life. This is all my fault. I should have left while I have a chance to leave while my husband was on a business trip, instead, I left him while we're fighting and that resulted to Toby's current condition.

I had a dream where my dear son Tobias was there though, he comforted me before I woke up. It was a beautiful dream. One I wish were real, but I know that it will never happen. Because of me, he's in critical condition. And if ever he lives, he will never live a normal life because there are fractures all over his body. I'm just happy that he's still alive, though unconscious. An hour has passed and I saw my husband, Ben approached me like he's sorry for what happened. "I'm sorry," Ben said, "If I'm only paying attention to your needs, this wouldn't happen to both of you."

"But you don't listen." I said, "That's the problem, Ben! You never listen to our needs. You only listen to yours."

"I'll make it up to you, I promise."

"Ben, I love you. But I want a divorce."

"Please don't do this to me!" Ben said, while crying. "I can't afford to lose both of you."

"You already did, and now I'm gonna lose Toby too."

"Please don't do this to me, Lisa! I'm begging you."

"No, Ben, I made up my mind. I'm sorry, but I'm going to pursue our divorce." Ben left us with a sad face. I don't know if every word he says is true, that he means every word. But I don't care anymore, because he lied to me in the sickest way possible.

When I first met Ben, he was a good man. We dated for a year, and he never gave up on me. Then after 4 years, he decided to marry me which I cried in tears of joy. When we had Toby, he became a loving father. He loves Toby so much that he can't live without him. Then one day, things became different. From a loving father and husband, he became tyrannical. He began arguing with me even in little things. He always scolds his son for not being man enough to enjoy sports like any other normal boys. He wants his son to be just like everybody else, I don't want that. I want our son to enjoy what he loves to do, and that is writing stories and poems. Then he became so jealous that he always questions my intention whenever I go out with my girlfriends. He thinks that I'm cheating on him.

I began to ask myself, what happened? What have I done wrong for him to act this way? Or is there something that he's hiding from us? So I started wondering what happened to him, I began to investigate. Since I can't open his phone because I know that it's private and I respect his boundaries, I followed him by hiring a private investigator. And what the private investigator gave me, surprised me in the worst way possible. I realized that he was cheating on me with another woman. The audacity of this man! He was jealous of me that he questions my intentions, when he's the one who's cheating on the back door. I confronted him, by asking questions which I know that he will argue about. Then I showed him the photos of him kissing another woman and they went to a hotel. He can't lie to me with this evidence. So, he told me the truth.

He was seeing another woman and it is evident with these pictures, which angered me so I went to my room to pack up my stuff and same with Toby. I told Toby that we're going back to his grandma's place and we'll be staying there for a few days. But after we packed, we had an accident. A terrible one. One I wish wouldn't happen to us, especially to Toby. He's still young and innocent. I know that he's been having troubles with school lately, but I know that he can overcome those challenges. I also don't like the fact that Ben always argues with me in front of Toby, and sometimes would beat the hell out of my son. So I made up my mind from the moment I saw the photo that I had enough with him, so we packed and leave. But then, I had this dream where Toby's alive and well, he's just trapped in some dimension which I don't have a clue but frantic about it. I know that Toby's alive, his mind is just somewhere else. Toby, if you're here, you must know that mommy's always here for you. Please stay alive, because I'm praying that you'd be safe.