A Silent Sin

I Love You

Kirishima started to hyperventilate in my arms, I tried calling his name but he covered his ears and kept yelling for it to

"Stop Stop Pl-ease!"

He curled in on himself more, I tried shaking him but nothing worked. I didn't know what to do.

What was going on? Was having a panic attack? What does he do when I have panic attacks?!

Shit think, think ,think.

I made him sit up against my chest, his head resting against me as he sits in between my legs. I try getting his attention by saying his name but nothings working. He wouldn't stop crying, Aizawa rushed in only a few minutes later with the others. Pain all over their faces as they saw the condition Kirishima was in, I wanted to cry.

I really did, it broke my heart to see Kirishima in so much pain. I held him tighter, stroking his head trying to calm him down but he only sobbed louder. The others were crying, Mina was crying into Sero's chest while he had a deep frown on his face.

Kaminari had left the room with Deku to try and calm the other down. Aizawa was trying to understand what to do, I soon started to whisper sweet things into his ear; Hoping that he could hear me and that he was going to be okay.

My beautiful Kirishima, please, you're okay.

A while after the others left and Kirishima stopped hyperventilating, his face was red and tear stained, I soon noticed the bites and hickeys on his neck. I cringed at the sight of them. I placed a few kisses to his temple and continued to say sweet nothings to him, his hands fell from his ears and he slowly looked up at me. His red eyes so full of sorrow and hate, but not of me, but of himself. I cradled his cheek in my hand and he nuzzled into my hand from the warmth sighing softly.

He brought his knees to his chest, still leaning against me. He spoke. 

'B-bakugou..is- hiccup*- Is it really tr-ue?" he whispered, not meeting my gaze.

"What is..?" I say, running my fingers through his hair.

He paused for a few seconds

"Was I re-ally..r-r-aped?" I stiffened. Was that really the reason he was crying? I slowly put two and two together, the bite marks, him winching when he walks or sits down, the way he's so scared of anyone touching him.

I held him closer, not trusting in myself to speak aloud, afraid of breaking in front of Kirishima when he needs me most. So I stay silent , he doesn't take the silence very well.

"K-katsuki...please answer me." To think that we go on a first name basis at a time like this, it hurts more than you can imagine.

'Yes love, you were-" I couldn't hold back anymore, tears soon starting to make their way down my face. I need to stay strong for him. He cuddled closer into me, his face in the crook of my neck. His breath softly fawning over my neck, I continued to run my fingers in his hair, my other rubbing up and down his forearm.

"Don't worry love, no one's going to hurt you.. I'll protect you. I promise."  

We stayed cuddled up together for a while, not wanting to be too far from each other. I tried distracting him by asking questions about things he liked..

He'd barely answer any of them.

I tried playing a movie for us to watch, I decided on watching I Am Legend because it's an actually good movie except for how hard both Kirishima and I cried when his dog died, but in the end I knew Kirishima was feeling better. Normally it'd be kirishima who'd be starting up a conversation but this time it was me who was trying to distract the other.

I'd rant on and on about All Might, how much I despise that green haired loser, he'd chuckle and giggle at how immature I am. I started to talk about stars and their meanings, he'd cut in saying things like "I already knew that" and or "That's stupid".

"Hey.." He spoke, stopping me from continuing why I hate people who actually believe in Zodiac signs

" What's the matter.." I tried not to sound too concerned, seeing how he probably thinks he's a nuisance right now.

"Is..is it really my fault."

I gave him a blank stare, what's his fault? Who said anything was his fault, he turned to look at me, not staring at the ceiling anymore, His red, red eyes full of sadness. I take a deep breath in, I was taken aback by his question but also by how god damn beautiful he is.

Even though his face was red and puffy from crying and voice garbled and scratchy, he still looks as if he was carved out of marble. People always say you can't cry pretty but my god, I wouldn't have him look at me any other way.

I move to lay on my side, softly holding his jaw rubbing his cheek with my thumb.

"What do you mean love..?" he sighed, placing a hand atop of mine. Closing his eyes slowly, trying to level his breathing, Stopping any hics and sniffles that might escape his throat when he speaks.

"I-is it my fault that I-" he paused, trying to stop himself from crying "that I got raped."

I pulled him into me, wrapping my arms around him. Softly running my finger through his red hair, soft under my fingertips. "No love, it's not your fault and never will be..You didn't ask for this to happen" Pressing a kiss to his temple, he nuzzled softly into the crook of my neck.

The silence of the room crept into the walls, sinking into Kirishima's bones as he tried to sink back into sleep. He could tell it wasn't going to happen. Kirishima felt as if the world was pressed down on his chest.

"Kirishima," Bakugou whispered, running comforting fingers through the boy's hair,

"I'm so sorry."

"Why are you sorry?" He rasped, glancing up at him

God, he looked ruined. Bakugou placed a thumb under one of the dark circles under his eyes. Kirishima shuddered, huddling closer, "I'm sorry that you had to-," Kirishima covered his mouth with his hand, "Don't."

Bakugou placed a soft kiss on his hand, then removed it from his face, holding it tightly intertwining their fingers.

"Then if i can't apologize, you can't blame yourself." I spoke, smug. He softly chuckled, placing a small kiss to my hand. It made me cheeks flare up from all the blood rushing to my face, god his lips were soft. Everything about him was soft, even though his quirk makes him look as if he's the monster hiding under your bed, he rather cuddle up next to you with a hot chocolate in his hand and then kiss you goodnight when you fall asleep.

"You're so cute."

He stutters, his own cheeks flaring up. I can almost see the smoke coming out of his ears, I chuckled. He started to laugh, his eyes closing and the noise filling the quiet room, I missed that laugh. It's only been gone for a few hours and yet it makes me smile like i haven't heard it in years.

"You've gone soft Bakugou, wait till I tell the squad this!"

"If you do that I will end you, I will." I threaten, no venom in my treat though.