A Silent Sin

Call Out My Name

Kirishima's Point Of View

Squeezing onto the ash blonde bunny tight I hear the noises of laughing children, teens, and adults alike having fun. Smiling, holding prizes, even holding their loved ones close and yet when my loved one did I ended up pushing him away. He must hate me now after doing what I did, seeing how he helped me through it and all he wants to do is see me smile and love me I ended up hurting him in ways a simple sorry can't fix.

God I'm such a FUCKING Idiot-

Why am I like this?

I was already fucked up before and now...there's no fixing me.

I'm not unbreakable, I never was.

I'm like a war weapon but once you pull too hard, I might break and I might burst. And all it took for me to fucking break down was something as stupid as fucking losing my virginity to some old man.

Why

Why was I so goddamn weak?

Why?

I don't deserve their friendship

His love

I need to stop

I can't do this anymore

I can't just fake being okay

I'm not okay

I'll never be okay

Nothing I do will ever make me feel okay

My head was spinning in a down-ward spiral, my head throbbing from the fat tears that filled down my cheeks and the feeling of all my emotions and feelings from the past few days coming to drag me into the darkest pits of the human mind and I had nothing to hold on to.

No one could save me, I was already so long gone , I just wanted it all to end, I want it to end. Someone please end my pain. End me for fuck sakes god.

My ears rang from how disconnected from the world I could barely hear the soft call of my own name, the ringing became louder and louder and so did the call of my name. I was going insane, I ran away from anyone who tried to help me. Why would they try to find me?

"E-..ou!"

No stop it you're not real.

"Ei-..rou!"

Shut up!

"Eiji-..u!"

SHUT UP SHUT UP! You're not real!

"EIJIROU!"

Two calloused hands gripped lightly on my face, pulling my head up to look directly into deep red eyes. Those that could make the brightest rubies run for their money, so familiar yet so far away. I remember that dreamlike candlelight like a dream that you can't quite place, those red eyes I could never forget the first time I saw those eyes.

"Eijirou, love, it's me! Please it's okay.."

Reaching my head out hesitantly, the ringing slowly stopped and the haze over my eyes weakened, my fingertips met with soft skin the slightest hint of red on his cheeks. It was Bakugou, it was Bakugou...Bakugou!

Throwing my arms around him I hung onto him tightly, fearing of losing the warm hold he had on my body. Fat tears rolling down my face once again as I cried into the crook of his neck, sobbing as I tried to form words I knew were being slurred by my tongue. I felt searing hands press firmly on my back making me gasp at the touch, I never knew I needed his touch so badly that once I felt his feather light touches it'd make me sob harder into his chest. 

'Shh, Eiji, it's okay, I'm here...I'm so sorry" He stated, pulling me in closer by the waist. One if his hands started to rake through my red locks, rubbing my head pulling me closer into his chest. I sobbed, shaking my head, my hands having a death grip on the back of his jacket, intaking in his sweet scent trying to remember how to breathe in properly.

"I'm taking you home.." his hands fell down to my thighs, rubbing on the sides softly. Pressing a soft kiss to my temple and hoisting me up to where I sat on his hips, his hands gripping firmly on my thighs keeping me balanced while I fixed myself one his hips wrapping my legs around his waist.

His touch never left my skin, one hand still gripping my thigh while the other dragging along my leg onto my back making sure I was comfortable before he started walking. I started to squirm on his hips just wanting him to take me home but couldn't help but grow somewhat aroused by his touches

Is there something wrong with me?

"We're going home ,Love ,don't worry.."

The nickname love sent shockwaves through my body, god I'm so fucking delirious i'm getting fucking turned on by something so stupid. I nodded ,my head the tears have stopped by now and all that are left from my attack are hiccups and sniffles. I never let go of the stuffed bunny so nothing was left behind or forgotten, Bakugou started walking never letting his protective grip on my go.

Nuzzling my face into his black jacket I soon found peace, I was safe and with someone who I knew only wanted to love and help me.

So for the first time in a while, I truly did smile.

Not just to make others happy or to try and fake my own happiness to prove to myself I had no reason to be afraid.

I truly believed that at that moment, I was happy.

Really happy.