A Silent Sin

Lost Without You

Kirishima's Point Of View

The last thing I really remember was being pulled by the hem of my shirt and warm lips being softly pressed onto mine, I didn't know what to think. Should I run? Hide? Do i push him away? All these thoughts coming at once clouding my vision, I have to get away. One soft kiss will turn into hunger for something more and I'll be used again. I thought I was safe! Bakugou was supposed to protect me! 

Why was he using me?

Is that really all I am? 

A toy?

Did Bakugou say all those things just to make my walls come down so he can use me like that Man did?

"S-stop!" My hands come in contact with a body and I shuddered at the touch, No, no ,no. The body fell over and surprise came to their face, I can breath.

My soundings shifted, I was back at the alley pressed up against a brick wall. I tried to scream but a dirty hand covered my mouth, I wanted to run, kick, I wanted to do something!

No

Stop

Not again

I cant do this

Kill me-

"Kirishima!"

I felt myself being shaken, I saw a blur of red but my tears came down so fast shapes just blurred together in the dark.

Whoever it was had their hands on my shoulders.

"G-get away from me!" 

Don't touch me

Don't touch me

Stop

Not again

I can't do this

Stop

I cant breathe, I need to get away.
He'll hurt me again ..

My vision soon became more and more cloudy, I pushed the hands of my shoulders and ran. Bumping into other people causing me to trip and fall only to be yelled at or asked if I was okay. Everyone kept touching me ,their faces contouring into the man in the alleyway. Stop, Stop, stop stop!

Swatting grading hands away I stood up and continued to run, the bunny Bakugou had gotten me still being held tightly in my arms. Dirt from my fall making its ash blonde fur have black and brown stains from where it had contact to the floor, I didn't care. 

More and more bodies and hands were soon touching me in unwanted places, grabbing and pulling. Covering my mouth so I couldn't scream, pulling my shirt, pushing me around, grabbing around my knees and ankles, I wanted to crumble to the floor and just like the rough hands tear me apart. I found myself in a dark Corner of two booths, far from the main attractions. No one noticed me, I hid behind a create and some barrels and hugging the stuff bunny tight, Bakugou's caramel sent still lingering on the dirt covered bunny. 

I tried to count my breaths, or rubbing my hand over the bunny to distract my mind from the still lingering touches from only moments ago. 

Breath in, one

Breath out, two 

Breath in, three

Breath out, four

Bakugou had taught me these breathing techniques because he himself uses them, holding the bunny closer I couldn't see myself not comparing the ash blond fur to Bakugou's spiky ash blonde hair. 

I sighed, I shouldn't have pushed him away. 

I needed to find him

Tell him how fucking sorry I am for pushing him away. 

If only I had my phone it's still at the police station for fingerprint analysis. 

More fat tears started to pour out of my already bloodshot eyes, staining my already tera stained face.  I want Bakugou. 

I want my Bakugou again. 

I just want him and him alone. For only his loving touch and no one else's. 

I want to hear him say he loves me again and again. 

I just want..