A Silent Sin

The rest of the day was a blur, I was tired, Very tired. After hearing from Mr.Aizawa that I had gone out two weeks ago for snacks and the next thing he knows i'm in an hospital bed with marks of rape. I didn't respond. I was sent to a different hospital with a few police officers, Bakugou, and Mr. Aizawa. My rapest was detained and while the Officers were taking him out of the building he kept screaming. 

"Y̶o̶u̶ l̶i̶t̶t̶l̶e̶ b̶r̶a̶t̶, I̶'l̶l̶ k̶i̶l̶l̶ y̶o̶u̶ " 

Over and over, my brain and body went on autopilot till we got to the new hospital. Bakugou sat next to me in the Police car, not a word was spoken between us, our fingers interwind the whole ride. I only stared at my feet, losing and gaining the ability to zone out.  I wanted to go underwater, drown the world out, not listen to the Mans screams of how we wanted to kill me, or the words of reason coming from Bakugou. 

𝐉𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐝𝐫𝐨𝐰𝐧.

Become Silent. 

Be̶c̶o̶m̶e̶ A̶ S̶i̶l̶e̶n̶t̶ S̶i̶n̶

By the time we made it to the new hospital I had zoned back in, shaking my head softly as I get used to the new room I was placed in. A kids room, the walls painted with birds, rainbows, flowers, and heroes.

Hero, huh? Something I could never be. 

Bakugou sat beside me the whole time, our fingers still locked together, he wouldn't speak, wouldn't look at me, he was silent. It scared me. His face had no expression, his red red eyes showing nothing but disinterest, I sighed. 

I remember my dream, how those same red eyes would look at me. I shivered, I can't get dreams confused with reality.  He doesn't love me, the way he hugged me earlier was to make sure I was SAFE not because he loved me. 

I looked down at my body, my legs and arms, seeing them more scrawny and sickly then hero like. My skin that was once sun kissed now pale and ivory, I was disgusted with myself. I can't let anyone see me like this, I'm ugly, revolting, just like I was in middle school. I wince, sucking in a breath, forcing the stinging in my eyes to lessen. 

I was so focused on myself I didn't notice a figure moving beside me, I felt a gently double tap under my chin, forcing me out of my daze. I turn to Bakugou, my eyes widening a bit from how close our faces are. 

When did we get so close?

He doesn't say anything, no normal growl or tch, No scoff, nothing. He showed no sign of annoyance, I sucked in a much needed breath of air I didn't know I needed. 

"You can cry Eijirou. Nothing is stopping you." I warm hand was placed on my cheek, it was Bakugou's. His thumb was slowly rubbing on my skin, I leaned into his hand softly sighing as I do so. I try to speak, to say something up lifting, but I have nothing left to say. I weak whimper comes from my lips the stinging in my eyes breaking free as tears flow down my face. 

I sob, reaching my hands out gripping onto Bakugou's shirt, tugging on him to try and pull him closer. He does, standing up quickly to wrap his arms around my head and torso making my face fit into the crook of his neck. I sob onto his skin, wetting his shirt as my tears fall fast and hard off my face. 

We sway slowly from side to side, the angle of the hug was uncomfortable so Bakugou moved me to were my legs were dangling off the bed I was sitting on, moving so he can fit in-between my legs to hug me closer and harder. I take in Bakugou's Carmel smell, trying so hard to control my breathing, but in the end I start to hyperventilate. My vice grip on Bakugou's shirt starting to loosen, my head was spinning, I felt like I couldn't take any air in, my chest was moving but the relief of a much needed breath was never in my lungs. 

I lay my head Bakugou's shoulder, I feel as if I can't move my body, my vision was blurred from tears and lack of air, I couldn't hold my arms up anymore they fell down to my sides, feeling like they weighed a thousand pounds. My ears rang, loud and persistence. I felt as if all the tension in my body left me, I felt..weird. 

Shutting my eyes, all I can do is just let myself go in a downward spiral, nothing can save me. 

I'm alone. 

All alone. 

Just drown. 

Zone out.

Sleep.

"Eijirou." 

"I love you."