Boy on the field

THIS PART WAS SUPPOSED TO BE PART 33 IM PISSSSSSED

I'm so fucking PISSSSED I FORGIT THIS WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKK AHHHHHHH IM SO SORRY

TW: self hate, guilt, depression

OLIVERS POV

it's been almost a week and a half since Cedric died. Nothing is the same.

No one has seen or heard from Julia, not even Luna or Mione. I don't know how she's handling it or if she needs help.

But Draco sure hasn't given any, hanging around with his mates all the time. He is just a bitchy excuse of a boyfriend. I don't actually mean that but these past months he kinda have.

GOD OLIVER GET YOUR ACT TOGETHER.

Your best friend just died for Merlin sake.

I haven't really mourned his death as much as I thought I would. He was the only one that knew about my mothers death a few weeks before Cedric's passing.

I guess I realize that NO ONE could have saved either of them and whenever I feel stressed out I just fly around the pitch which always helps.

"Hey Wood? You alright?"

I shake my head out of the trance I'm in "oh yeah I'm fine."

Hermione sits next to me "Oliver you don't have to lie I can tell. Your closest friend just died and Julia won't come out of her room."

"She's in her room?"

"Yes she's been there for almost 2 weeks. Where are you going?"

I stand up, grab my wand and make my way up to the raven claw tower.

Hermione is following behind me confused but all that matters is that I know what I'm doing. And I do so that's good.

I say the password that I've basically memorized at this point and walk through the door with hermione.

"Why hello Oliver. Oh hermione too. To what do I owe the pleasure?" 

I turn to see Luna sitting on a barstool drinking tea and reading one of the books from the very big book shelf in the corner. 

I've never really seen how beautiful the ravenclaw common room is

"Oliver. Will you tell me what the bloody hell are we doing here?" I turn to the girls and say "come with me"

I walk up the stairs to Julia's room. The door is shut and I hear faint mumbling. I knock on the door.

"Hello Julia, It's Oliver and your friends. We're here to help."

She doesn't hear us so I knock again still hearing faint mumbling "Please Julia we just want to help"

she doesn't answer so I pull out my wand and in a slight whisper "Alohomora" the door unlocks and opens slightly.

I see inside the room is dark, the shades are pulled down, the lights and candles are off and Julia is on her bed under her covers. I slowly walk over to her bed. She is mumbling to herself.

"Hey Julia. It's Oli. Oliver your friend?" She doesn't respond. I turn to the girls who are waiting outside the door.

For a moment she stops mumbling and closes her eyes and sighs

"it's my fault"

I turn back to her after she speaks

"pardon me?" "It's my fault" she says staring up at the ceiling.

I take a moment to think "Julia? Do you think you're the cause of Cedric's death?"

There is silence.

She turns to me and hugs me just crying on my shoulder. I hug her back as we sink to the floor.

"You did nothing wrong Julia. No one could have known. This is not your fault."

She sniffles and pulls away. I turn to see the girls nod and leave.

"When was the last time you ate? Or drank?"

She laughs at my protectiveness. I think she doesn't need a lover right now, she needs a friend. So that is what I plan to be.

Teachers have allowed me to help her after school to fill her in on what she missed in class.

I see her everyday after classes and she is progressively getting better everyday.

Whether it be eating something as small as a granola or an apple.

She starts to be the more upbeat and cheerful person I met.

I leave her room and then I see him.