One Last... Call

Former

- Connor -

"Jace what the fuck?" I stormed inside his classroom, angrily. Luckily it was his study period and no one was watching them. All of his classmates looked at me all together, with mixed emotions on their face.

"Connor, what are you doing here? Get back to your class. I thought we were meeting up after class." Jace stood up from his seat, closing his notebook on top of his desk. 

I walked up to him, grabbing him by the collar of his shirt. "Dammit Jace, what were you thinking?"

"What are you talking about?" He asked, though I'm pretty sure he knew what I meant.

My fist curled up as I clenched his shirt tighter. He didn't even flinch a bit, as if he was expecting this.

I had no idea why he did what he had done, but when rumours broke out, I thought it would stayed that way. But it didn't. I thought he was just doing that to make me jealous. Guess I chose the wrong option.

"Drop me down and we can talk outside. Let's be civilized." He tried to pry my hands off his shirt. I let loose and shoved him on a desk. Though he wasn't exactly a tough guy, Jace can handle this much physical hurt.

He walked past me, straightening his curled blazer, tucking back his pulled out shirt. I followed him to an empty classroom, keeping my distance from him. He just looked so casual compared to my angered face. I was definitely scowling, no doubt in that.

I slammed the door shut behind me, not even caring if someone would have heard it. Then he came up to me and his fist met my face, slightly knocking me back.

"What's the big deal coming in to my class Connor? Don't you have one right now?" He raised his voice. I could not even keep count of how many times we'd fought this past weeks.

"Jace I thought you were just teasing me. What's this I've heard that you're seeing this other guy, huh? Don't you think it's a big deal with me?" I yelled back, kicking a desk as hard as I could, pushing it against the others.

He was about to launch himself again towards me, but he stopped dead on his tracks. "I thought to myself I was teasing you at first..." He calmed down, sitting on top of a desk.

"But then, it became more than that. It was not even meant to be."  He rubbed his temples then to his eyes. I have not seen Jace this tired.

"Was I too clingy to you?" I deadpanned, trying my hardest not to get too physical. There was no way in hell we can talk normally if we're just going to start yelling and hurting each other.

Jace shook his head, his slightly long brown hair swayed along. All of a sudden the sky darkened, like in those soap operas where everything was executed with perfect timing.

"Then why Jace? Why do this to me? Why... cheat on me?" Was I just blabbering or did those actually come out of my mouth? Hell I don't even want to think what I want to say now.

"I don't even know. We just hang out for a while, he said that we could be friends. That was when you first got into varsity. I felt like you spent less time with me so I wanted someone with me until you got back." He said, lowly and softly. 

The air in the room felt heavier every moment that passed. This was making me all sorts of uncomfortable. I thought I had calmed down, but the words he spoke made my heartbeat go wild once more.

"He said that he'll be with me all the time. That's when I thought to myself if I could tease you that I'm seeing someone, you may reconsider our relationship. But I slipped, badly. I fell in love with him, Connor." Jace stood up and walked towards me. He cupped my face with his hands, cold to the touch. His eyes become teary. I cannot see what emotions those had; did it have sorrow, regret or love? I can't even tell.

I swatted his hands off. "Jace, I was not dumb enough not to have thought about that. I tried my hardest to be there with you whenever I can. All I ask is a little bit of my own time. But then again, I know deep down you just want me to yourself."

I stepped close to the door, holding the doorknob. Jace caught my other arm with his hand. "Please Connor, listen to me. We can still make this work." He begged. I never thought of him doing this. But this has to be done.

"I'm sorry Jace. We're better off not seeing each other." I exited the room and left Jace behind. When the door shut, so was my relationship with Jace. 

Dale shuffled quite a lot in his sleep recently. He always told me that he's feeling alright and nothing is wrong, but stress is most likely catching up to him. I even told him to give himself a break but he wouldn't even listen.

We laid down the couch, his naked body on top of mine. I don't know what got into us but in that moment, we were full of lust all of a sudden. Frustrated? Maybe. It felt wrong yet so good and right at the same time. He fully took control of the whole situation, doing whatever it takes to distract me, make me focus on him and him alone. He successfully did it.

Yet I am still sidetracked. I knew I shouldn't have left Jace in that room a long time ago. I knew I should have let him speak his mind. I knew I was being a jerk and just ran away, even got to the point where I mercifully begged my parents to transfer me to another school as soon as possible.

But then I still felt I was blessed. I don't believe on any higher being, but Dale showed up at my lowest. He brought me hope. He understood every part of me that Jace couldn't even put himself together.

"Stop moving." Dale nuzzled his face on my chest. Our legs still crossed each other.

"I'm not moving at all." I chuckled under my breath. I leaned down and kissed his head.

"Connor?" He glanced up at me, his eyes pleading. 

I pulled him up closer to me, my hold firm. "I am not going anywhere Dale. I'm never letting you do."

"I'll hold on to it." His eyes closed once more, his warm breath hitting my bare skin.

Over the time I have been in relationship with Dale, I've learned a lot of things: not to lose my temper, the need to understand for what he need, and to share our time as much as we can. Now that we're basically living together, I have to be more patient and open with him. 

I know that I will spend the rest of my life with him. That's why I'll have to get that one last closure with Jace so I can definitely move on.