One Last... Call

Retold

- Connor -

"Hey." The first thing this guy said to me as he approached me sitting by myself at one of the lunch tables. He probably thought I needed some company since I just had a fist fight with one of those assholes that were picking on him. 

I scooted a bit further from him, not paying attention to him as much. When I reached the end of the seat, I knew I would instantly fall down so instead I got up my seat and was about to walk away.

"About earlier..." He paused rubbing his neck. What did I say about not paying attention to him? Scratch that, I was all eyes on him. "Thank I guess." 

I shrugged, taking a seat across him. "No biggie, not a big fan of bullying."  He had set his organizer on the table and his arms on top of it. I didn't notice that he had a wound on his cheek that looked fresh.

I think he noticed where my eyes were and quickly grabbed a napkin from his pocket and covered it. "It's not that deep." He muttered, wincing at the same time.

I clicked my tongue then moved right next to him. I took my small first aid kit which I bring nearly everyday knowing that I  am oh-so-prone to any injuries. Thanks Mum, for having this in my backpack.

The guy didn't look my way and was avoiding that at any cost. "This should be a quick patch." I opened my kit and grabbed a small cotton ball and poured a small amount of disinfectant on it. I held his hand and took it away from his cheek. 

When the cotton ball met his wound, he slightly flinched biting his lip to suppress any groans and pain that were about to escape. "Stay put or I'll never be done here." He nodded and sat still. When I was done cleaning his wound, I put a small band-aid on top of it. I smirked at my work.

"Thanks for that."  He smiled and his face had a tint of pink. 

"We never introduced ourselves." I started. " I'm Connor Ward, by the way."

"Jace Williams."

I rand my hand on the scar that I helped Jace back then. It's barely noticeable but it was still there. I recalled that moment when we actually first met, technically it was our second time but we never got a chance to introduce to each other after that. 

Jace slept right next to me with his head on my chest. I ran my fingers on his hair, playing with them while careful not to wake him up. He looked so peaceful and calm.

Still, I don't know what demon possessed me to do such things that I never expected. The thought of it sent shivers on my spine, but the deed was done. There was nothing else I could do besides wait and see what will happen.

I ran my fingers through my hair and closed my eyes. I am a hypocrite. I just did what I thought I would never do to Dale, even if he had done it.

Guilt made it's way to my chest that it hurt badly, as if a sharp knife sliced through my heart. I did not even think about that what I did was what Dale had done back then. It's some sort of twisted and gutted way how life turned out to be. I am a hypocrite. 

No, this is me betraying Dale after we promised each to each other not to let each other go. After what had happened last year we said that that won't ever happen again nor neither of us should be doing such.

"Hey." Jace nuzzled on my chest then looked up my way.

I let a weak smile run through my face.  "That was the first thing you said to me when we first met." 

"You remembered." He shifted to his side and put his arms underneath him so he could steady himself.

"How could I forget about that? You were being hit by those assholes back then and you were not able to defend yourself." 

"Yeah, well I could have. I just chose not to." A smirk formed on his face. 

We just stared at each other for an unknown amount of time. Neither of us wanted to move or at least make a move. Neither of us wanted to give in, or maybe Jace was waiting for me to give in.

"I..." I breathed out. "I can't do this Jace. This is so wrong in all levels of understanding." I pushed my naked body out of his bed then quickly put on my clothing. Jace draped himself with his blanket as he got close to me, clutching the blanket over his chest.

"No it isn't wrong. You're just... confused." Confused was an understatement. Unhinged would probably be the better definition of myself as of this very moment.

"I love Dale."

"But you love me."

"I didn't say such a thing."

"Actions speak louder than words."

"That was not meant to be."

"Yet here you are." Jace didn't waste any time and kissed me deeply on my lips. 

Yet here I actually am. Not wanting to push Jace away from where he was. I can clearly admit to myself now that I was the one giving in. I gave in to my emotions. I gave in to my feelings. I gave in to this temptation. This is stupid. This is wrong. This is not what I should have done.

"I have to go." With all the strength I mustered, I pushed Jace to his bed. I got out of his flat in no time, then ran, ran like a little boy away from home. I ran like nothing mattered right now but finding solace.

It almost took me about twenty minutes to get to the street where my apartment was. I noticed that Dale's car was already parked, but mine was clearly missing. I'm almost sure that he was suspicious and worried of my whereabouts. Maybe I can explain this to him without him getting mad.

As I looked passed the other cars that were on the side of the street, I saw Dale standing right next to one. The expression on his face was blank, none was shown, not even a smile. But a small smile gently showed up as he got inside a car then closed the door behind him. I took a step back and hid among the parked cars.

The car he was on drove by and the person on the driver seat was the only person I would not expect Dale to be with right now. 

"Roy." My fist clenched and I slammed it against a stranger's car.