Savior

Chapter thirty nine: A Trip

I woke up with the sun boiling my eyes and got up the close the curtains.

I rubbed my eyes looking back to my bed and noticing that Loki had left.
I mean it's not like I wanted him to stay but I wouldn't have minded.

I went to the bathroom and washed my face with cold water.
I could smell the subtle coconut from the shampoo I used in Loki's hair last night.

I smile to myself.

I'm so happy Loki and I have gotten so close.
I hope he knows how much I care about him.

I tie my hair up leaving the bathroom to go to the kitchen.

"Good morning," I say out loud going to look in the fridge but no one answers. I turn around to see almost everyone except Nat and Bruce sitting or standing around the coffee table.

Loki is standing next to Thor who has a bleak look on his face.

"What's going on guys?" I ask sitting down next to Bucky on the couch. He pats my shoulder is like in a consolation kind of way.
"Guys what's going on?" I ask again a hint of fear in my voice this time.

"Y/N my brother and I are going to Asgard tomorrow," Thor speaks up shifting awkwardly in his stance.

My heart falls to my stomach.

He's leaving me?

"Uh- for how long?" I try acting calm but I instinctively start picking at my nails.

"Well days on Asgard are not the same here on midgaurd. We are going to be there for 5 days but here we will be gone for about a month..." he trails off at the end.

"A month!" My hands clam up and Loki turns to look at me emotionlessly.
Thor nods yes and I notice Tony, Pepper, Steve, Clint, and Bucky just looking at me with so much pity that I could literally choke.

"Cool...sounds good, don't leave without saying goodbye," I say getting up and walking to my room without another word.
I can hear Steve call out behind me but I don't really pay it any mind.

I change into some brisk workout clothes and go outside to run laps.

A month is such a long time. Why does he want to leave?
Does he just not like being with me?
I guess I should be more understanding since he's being held captive here by the team.

Fuck that tho, did he just spend so much time with me and tell me what I wanted to hear because he was planning on leaving me?!

I kept running yesterday's events through my head.
Loki really does know how to make someone feel cared about.
I'm so naive to think that he wante- cared about me.

Tears trickle down my face as a run full force down the track my legs going weak forcing me to stop. I fold over onto my knees watching the water spot the ground under me.

How could I be so stupid?

I straightened my self and sit on the benches on the grass. It had rained yesterday so the grass was still wet, the sweet aroma soothing me.

I might just be overreacting, he is only going to be gone for a month.
But I mean... what if he wants to stay over there or they keep him there to pay for the "crimes" he committed on Asgard.

There is literally nothing I can do about it.

I hear squeaking next to me and smile seeing Pepper coming up to sit next to me.
She looks a little cold not having brought a jacket out with her.