After Mockingjay- Katniss and Peeta

Chapter 1: Missing

Katniss's P.O.V:

I miss him
I miss his humour
I miss his blond hair
I miss his beautiful blue eyes
I miss his smile
I miss Peeta

I woked up, screeming as usually, in the couch downstairs in Haymitch's house.
I can't live in my own house anymore, and Haymitch think that i am gonna die if i am just alone all the time.
He is right.
If i wasn't live in his house i should be dead now. He seriously feed me, take me out to some walks and sometimes even dress me.
I can't even take care of my self anymore.
I just can't stop thinking about him. I miss him so much.
But i have thinking about a thing.
Do i love him?
I don't know. How do you know if your'e in love?
But one thing is sure, he means everything to me.

(I didn't wrote the dream, later in the story it will be more dreams that i wrote;))

- NO, PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME! PLEASE NO!!!

I feel someone shake me, and then i hear someone scream my name,

- KATNISS WAKE UP!!

- NO PEETA!! DON'T LEAVE ME PLEASE!!

I hear my own voice, and then i wake up.

- Katniss, it was just a dream. You are here and your'e safe and Peeta is fine, probably, and he will come back, Haymitch says.

- No it will not happend, they took him, tortured him and soon they will kill him too!! I yell at him.

Haymitch doesn't say anything. Just sitting there and massage my back. I am still shacking. He tries to calm me down, but he fails.

- Come on, you need eat something, he says after i while.

I just nod and walk after him to the kitchen.

I have to do something to stop thinking about the dream.

Haymitch make pancakes, but Peeta's is much better, but i don't say anything.

- Hey, Haymitch says. What do you wanna do to activate you today then?

- I wanna travel to the capitol, meet Peeta so i know he is fine, i answer.

- No, you can't go there, you know you probably gonna get killed then, he says seriosly.

- I don't care, i have to find out that he is alive and okay, i say not keeping my eyes from his.

The silence after that makes me feel bad to Haymitch. He tries to make me do something else than just thinking about Peeta.

- I am sorry, i say after a while.

- It's alright, i mean that it's not stupid, because it comes from you, he says with a big grin on his face.

- Thanks, i say smiling halfhearted.

Haymitch always says that you can live with pain, i don't know if he has right, but you gonna have someone who helps you throw it. Like Haymitch does with me.

I like Haymitch. He is like a dad to me.

And I know what he is trying to do, he tries to activate me and go past everything i have got through.

I like when he is trying to help me, without him i maybe be dead since 5 months back.

- Thank you Haymitch, for everything, i need help and i like when you helping me. I need you and without you i should probably be dead now.

And i don't know how you can stand out with me, but i am truly glad that you are with me, Haymitch, i say seriosly.

He looks in to my eyes and a smile breaks out in his face. Then he comes in front of me and give me a hug.

It feel nice, a big warm hug is that i need right now, and Peeta of course.

We stand there a while and just hug each other, then we break the hug.

Then he kisses me on my forehead.