After Mockingjay- Katniss and Peeta

Chapter 31: Open up

Katniss came back after a while and called Haymitch. Soon after even Nathan came from the bakery, they called for a doctor. Katniss insisted to go to the hospital though, but Haymitch was being Haymitch and talked her through it.
Dr Aurelius even called me to se how i wss doing, and we talked about my flashback.
Apperently my flashback was caused by Katniss leaving with my child and the tracker jacker venom started to spread in my body.

Katniss still wont talk to me eye to eye.
And here i lay. In our bed with a concussion.
I have bedrest for atleast a week the doctor said.
It's not just that i can't be at the bakery, Katniss and i are further away from each other that we have been for years.
Both her and my nightmares are more often and more intense.

I just wish she could talk to me. She wouldn't even look at me anymore. I don't know if she's still mad or if she's embarressed or something.

Katniss's P.O.V:

I wake when i feel the bed shift beside me and Peeta makes his way towards the bathroom. Oh, poor Peeta.
I make myself out of the bed, in my own pace, and follow him to where he hovers over the toilet.
I kneel down beside him and hold his fringe while he pukes.
This is my fault, i think when i look at him.

"Katniss, just go. You shouldn't have to see me like this." He breathes before he begins again.

"No, i'm staying here." I shot back and i massage his lower back with my other hand.

When he's done i can see how tired he is and he leans tiredly against the bathroom wall.

"You okay?" I ask him.

He shrugs and i go downstairs to get a glas of water for him. When i get back i see him trying to get up from the floor in the bathroom. I help him up and to our bed.
I give him the water and help him lay down again. He groans by the headache and the tiredness.
When he has settled down i sit down beside him at the edge of the bed.

"I'm sorry." I begin before i can think.

"For what?" He mumbles.

"This is my fault. If i had just listened to you, this would never had happend." I apolognize and take his hands in mine.

"Don't say that, i know how much the woods means to you. But i was just trying to protect you. I hope you can understand that." He says and look up at me.

I smile down at him and a single tear escpae my eye.

"I love you Peeta. No matter what." I clap his cheeck with my hand and with the other, hold his hand om my belly.

"Don't ever leave again. Promise me that. I love you too." He whispers.

"I promise." I say and kiss his cheek.

And that's a promise i'm gonna keep.

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Peeta got better after a couple of days, so we started packing for the trip to district 4.
Even Haymitch and Effie showed up and ate dinner with us. Effie is still over the moon that she's going to be a grandmother. Haymitch is just grumpy. He thinks he's to old to be called a grandpa, but i know he's happy. Deep inside somewhere atleast.

I'm thankful that Effie hasn't pushed Nathan into conversations from the past, i know he's not ready just yet.
But he had opened up to us much more than before. He told us that he were rescued from District 12 after the bombings, but he were moved to another district due of his damages. He nearly died. They didn't let him out until after the war had ended. But he didn't came back right away. He stayed in a nearby district, but he wont tell us which. Until he was ready to come back to 12.
I know it must be hard for him to talk about these stuff. It's hard for all of us. I just want him to know that he can trust me and talk to me.
But i'm glad that when he talks about this, it's not just with Peeta, but with me too.
It also took a while for him to go back to the bakery, but with his brother's support, he finally gave in.

I"m really happy to go and see Annie and Finnick again. And their son ofcourse. I can't belive he's 10 already! It feels like he was a baby yesterday! Anyway, Gale and Johanna might come too. Well, that's what Annie said.
I haven't talked to Gale since the rebellion. I just force myself to pick up the phone and call him.

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"Peeta?" I mumble as i stand in front of the mirror in our bedroom trying new "mama" clothes.

"Mm." He answers from our walk-in closet. He's helping me sort clothes i can and can't have anymore.

"What am i going to say to Gale when i see him?" I ask him.

He walks out from the closet and stands behind me.

"Well, how do you feel about him?" He asks.

"That's not what i meant. I don't have those feelings for him. I don't know if i have ever had. But when i see him, i'm going to be overhelmed by feelings. And i don't know if i can handle those feelings and Prim right now." I tell him and turn to face him.

"It's going to be fine. I'm there with you all the time." He says and kisses my forehead.
"You look good."

"Very funny." I grumble and look down at myself.

"I meant it. You look incredible. Espacially your cute baby bumb." He smiles and look down at out little bundle of joy.

"I can't wait to meet her." I say and turn to the mirror again.

After i while i have decided.

"I don't think it really matters if Gale and i work out well or not, i don't need him or his fire. I've got a lot of that on my own. What i need is the dandelion in the spring, a promise that it can be good agian. You're my dandelion, Peeta. And i love you. I don't need anyone else." I kiss him and he breathes.

"I love you too."

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When. We're almost ready to leave, Nathan walks in.

"Are we ready?" He smiles nervously.

I look at Peeta and nod.

"Yes. We're ready."

And soon our trip to district 4 have started...