𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐝 ~ ✰☽ 𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐢𝐬 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐝𝐠𝐞 𝐱 𝐟𝐞𝐦 𝐨𝐜

~ fourteen ~

Holy shit. I've never been more nervous for something in my life. Today is the first day of shooting. The first day of everything.
I stayed up last night reviewing lines, which I had already memorized but I wanted to make sure I really really got them down.

I also texted Connor just to talk because he hasn't been reaching out. And I don't know how he'll feel about me having to kiss Louis. I just won't tell him yet. I'm afraid that Amara's plan will work, and I'll fall in love with Louis while still dating Connor.

Wait no. I won't fall in love with Louis. Psh. Not possible.

I told Connor about my nerves and my costumes and hair. But every time he replied with a simple "ooh" or "fun."

But then I asked if we could FaceTime and the boy said he was busy.
That was the end of our conversation. It hurts a bit when he doesn't show interest, but then posts us and gets a ton of new followers and likes. It reminds me of my first boyfriend. And I really hope we don't end that way.

But back to now, Willow told me to keep my hair natural, because it fits Enola's character well.
So now everyone gets to see my lovely frizz. Yay.

Today we are filming the scenes on Enola's bicycle, and the scene with her, Sherlock, and Mycroft at the train station. I wear the blue dress, with a blue ribbon. It was a fun little scene, and the opener. Harry told me that the film will switch from me, to small clips of activities with Helena. Those small scenes will be filmed at the very end of the movie. Apparently they jump around scenes quite a bit in the industry.

But that just made me worry that my kiss with Louis would come sooner rather than later...

Anyways, we start shooting at nine. It's seven. Leaving me two hours to get up and changed, and then head down to the hair and makeup trailer and get all dolled up.

The scenes with Tewksbury aren't for a while yet. Lucky Louis was given the option to stand by and watch the scenes until his turn to join in.
And I know he will. It'll give him another thing to tease me about.

For breakfast I decided to eat two donuts and a glass of Apple Juice. Nutritious, I know.
Then I went to brush my teeth and tidy myself up in the bathroom.
I don't think my heart has beat any faster than right now.

And once everything was ready, and I had packed a small bag with things like my script, water bottle, phone, and lunch. I was ready.
One hour left.

~

"Ahh y/n! You're here! How are you feeling?" Amara squeals, moving aside so I can step into the trailer.
"I'm great! I mean I'm obviously nervous but more excited."

I smile, following her to my chair in front of the bright mirror.
"I'm glad to hear that! You got all your lines?" She double checks, untying my hair and gently brushing it out with a comb.

I make a little 'mhm' noise and then it's quiet for a moment, the only noise was the quiet noise of the TV, which was tuned on the news station.
I have to tell her about Connor. I have to tell her that I can't fall in love with another boy. Because despite the fact that Connor had acted suspicious a few times, I can't cheat on him.

I'm not like that.

"Amara?" I get her attention, as she holds two bobby pins in her mouth.
"Hm?"
"D-Do you remember when you told me you'll try to make me and Louis fall in love yesterday? During the costume try ons?"

She pauses for a second and looks to the upper right corner of her eye as she thinks.
"Ooh yeah! It's my mission. I'll help you two stop the hatred. And besides, Harry will be really impressed by your "acting."