𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐝 ~ ✰☽ 𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐢𝐬 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐝𝐠𝐞 𝐱 𝐟𝐞𝐦 𝐨𝐜

~ thirty ~

Once again, Louis got a break. About three days. The boy gets another three days to relax. And boy am I jealous.
I get up every day and have scenes to film. Every. Day.

But it's not the same. Over his last break he still came down every single day to cheer me on and watch the scenes.

Now?

He hasn't come. For any scenes, actually.
And after the fall out we had I thought that I wouldn't care...
But it hurt.

It hurt to be on set, and while the camera wasn't on me I'd look over to the crew, and Louis wasn't there.
It hurts to hear everyone clapping, and feel my smile fade when I can't see Louis.
It hurts to walk back to the trailers without someone to talk with.

But I don't know why I care. I mean... I still get to see him when we film?

But it's not the same. I don't get to be with Louis. I get to be with Tewksbury. It's just not the same.

I don't know. But the more I think about it, the more I forget that I'm worki-

"Y/n!" Melany waves a hand in front of my face. I jump a bit, looking up at her as we stand inside the jujutsu training room.
"What's on your mind girl? Why are you zoning out so much?"

Oh you have no idea.

"Nothing I- sorry..." I huff, tucking some sweaty strands of hair away as I try to cover up my yawn.
Its later in the night, about eight o'clock, and I'm still working my butt off.

Melany holds her look at me, continuing that skeptical look.
"Is it the corkscrew? Is there something you don't understand?"

I shake my head and hold my hands on my hips, still out of breath.
"No it's just uh... I don't know I guess I just don't feel the best right now?"

Her eyes soften and she nods a couple times, crossing her arms in front of her chest as she leans back.
"Oh sweetheart we don't have to keep going if you feel sick. It's the last day of practice anyway."

Do I feel sick? No. Am I exhausted and miss having a friend around here? Yes.

I close my eyes for a second and take a few deep breaths to try and calm down a bit.
"Here, how about you go back to your trailer and take it easy for the rest of the night, okay? If you need something let me know."

I nod and once more wipe sweat off my forehead, before turning around walking off, followed by Melany.
I'm not the kind of person that lies to get out of things, but I needed to today.

The second I make it to the entrance, slipping on my shoes and grabbing my bag, I immediately book it out of there.
The air didn't help however, because it was humid again.

And now I'm just even more hot.
"Shit," I mumble and pick up my pace as I walk home.
My brain is messy. And I just need to clear it up.

~

After a long and warm shower, I laid on my bed, stomach down, scrolling through Instagram.
No more posts from Connor that I have to worry about.

Thanks goodness.

As I keep scrolling, I notice that Jess posted something.
Another one of her useless, silly, random selfies that she posts every once in a while. I chuckle a bit and double tap my screen when a white heart appears.

I click out of insta and go to text messages, where I have a shit ton of new ones.
This whole movie thing has made me forget about my real life.

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Y/n we miss you😢