Lover of Words

Fifteen

3am problems (3)

02.21

it's when you can't bond the same way anymore
it's when they'll be busy chasing things for their future
it's when you have to take way back home alone
it's when you have a lot to say but can't tell them anymore
it is scary
that I don't wanna enter that door
and walk that road
without them
I saw it all before
they did too
we all know it is bound to happen
because we're not vulnerable fifteens anymore
the fact that years from now everything might be over
as we walk on different paths
scares the hell out of me
maybe because I lived to much inside my comfort zone
and I only let few people to enter inside my walls
so now that they're drifting away..
it's sad that I have to sit and stare
but the fact that their exit might means me cutting some of the strings
scares me more
because I know that if someone leave,
I won't be looking at anything with the same love and affection
I had for them
it is effin exclusive
that I only have few dear people to me
and they're drifting away
and I am letting them go
because I know they'd eventually walk out my life
maybe I've been to attached
maybe we just had great connection
that'll linger in my memory until the day I die
to be honest,
I am very good at letting go
I always choose to drop their hand when they asked to
I never once the one to leave,
it's always the same scenario
I know what's bound to happen
and if it does,
I might be really dramatic
but I'll get over it,
the ones who were left behind
always mastered the art of being alone