Fuck or Forget you (H.S.-AU)

Chapter 8

So now I am sitting here, waiting for them to set up the camera. Why am I doing this?! I have noo clue actually.. because I'm drunk ... Or not? I don't know! But the fact that this video is going to ruin my life makes me crazy. I know that my life is already fucked up but this is making it worse!

"Okay, are you ready?" That stupid girl says in annoyance. I think her name is Cassie but it also could be Clara... Why can't I remember? I hate alcohol… Next time I go to a party I won't drink anything except water. But I don't even know if I'll ever go to a party again. This stupid YouTube video will destroy everything.. Shall I do it? I have no idea!

"Hello?! Earth to Martha?!"

Was she talking to me?

"Her name's Mia!" Marcel told her.

"I don't care what her name is!" Cassie shouts back. "Just start doing something for the video!" Now she is really pissed off...

What the fuck is wrong with her?! She doesn’t have to do a video for the whole world to see. I have to do it, so can someone please tell me why she’s fucking pissed off?

Oh wow, now I'm already swearing in my thoughts... in my crazy, confused, drunken thoughts.

I look at Marcel. His expression says clearly that I should do it. I look at that Jim guy. He's giving me a warm smile, he believes in me. I look at Stephanie. She isn't really watching, which means that she won't watch me doing my thing for the video. Finally I look at Cassie. She's smiling at me, too. But no warming smiles. No ... her smile is like a devil's smile. You can see flames in her eyes. Flames of hell. If she wore devil horns, you would think that she's the devil himself. But I.. I am not evil and I don't live in hell. I am an angel and my home is in heaven and I'll defeat her! I'll do this and I'll win! And I know the perfect song...

"Is it filming?" I am kind of happy and excited and really want to do this. I know I can do it, my mum's told me so many times and my music-teacher told me that I have a talent. I will do this!

"Yes it is, now start" the devil tells me with an evil smile.

I throat myself and start singing...

"I see you driving 'round town

With the girl I love and I'm like,

Forget you!

I guess the change in my pocket

Wasn't enough I'm like,

Forget you,

And forget her too!

I said, if I was richer, I'd still be with ya

Ha, now ain't that some shh...

And although there's pain in my chest

I still wish you the best with a

Forget you! 

Oo, oo, ooo

Yeah I'm sorry, I can't afford a ferrari,

But that don't mean I can't get you there.

I guess he's an xbox and I'm more atari,

But the way you play your game ain't fair.

I pity the fool that falls in love with you

(oh shh she's a gold digger)

Well

(just thought you should know nii)

Ooooooh

Well I've got some news for you

Yeah go run and tell your little boyfriend

I see you driving 'round town

With the girl I love and I'm like,

Forget you!

I guess the change in my pocket

Wasn't enough I'm like,

Forget you,

And forget her too!

I said, if I was richer, I'd still be with ya

Ha, now ain't that some shh (ain't that some shh)

And although there's pain in my chest

I still wish you the best with a

Forget you!

Oo, oo, ooo

Now baby, baby, baby, why'd you wanna wanna hurt me so bad?

(So bad, so bad, so bad)

I tried to tell my mamma but she told me

"This is one for your dad"

(Your dad, your dad, your dad)

Uh! Whyyy? Uh! Whyyy? Uh!

Whyyy lady? Oh! I love you!! Oh!

I still love you!! Oooh...!

I see you driving 'round town

With the girl I love and I'm like,

Forget you!

Oo, oo, ooo

I guess the change in my pocket

Wasn't enough I'm like,

Forget you,

And forget her too!

I said, if I was richer, I'd still be with ya

Ha, now ain't that some shh (ain't that some shh)

And although there's pain in my chest

I still wish you the best with a

Forget you! 

At the end of the song Marcel, Jim and other boys, and also Stephanie were singing. I felt so good and I feel good. To say or better sing it in Cassie's face was the best thing I've ever done. I know I could have sung "fuck you" instead of "forget you" but I was afraid because "fuck" is a bad word and I'm not really sure if you are allowed to say it on the internet. And also singing the song for Cassandra doesn't make any sense because she isn't really stealing my boy because I don't have one. Ouch... I really hope that I won't be forever alone and I kind of have a feeling that tells me that my life will change soon...

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