Am I Gay? (Boyxboy)

Chapter 1

September 5

Dear Diary,

So I just started my first day of 8th grade, it's was AMAZING! So Cory and I were walking to our lockers. I was telling Cory about how I hope this year could be different and then someone bummed into me and I dropped my books. We both went to pick up my books, when I looked at him my mind exploded! His cute black colored hair and those sexy blue eyes, his perfect facial features (he also has a one sexy body ;D ) made me melt up inside. I wanted to scream! "Hey sorry about this I wasn't paying attention I'm Ethan." Ugh his voice was so sexy. "U-U-Uh hai.... It's a-alright I wasn't either..." Boy do I suck at talking to people... Especially cute people! Wait no! No way, I do not like this guy... But he is so sexy! I don't know what is happening to me but I have homework to do.... (2 hours later) Dad just got home and he just yelled at me for no reason. I know him and mom are having an argument but why bring me into this stupid mess.

September 6th

Dear Diary,

Okay so today in school I saw Ethan, I just started to giggle and run around like and idiot when he smirked at me!
What does this mean?!?! I told Cory about how I like Ethan but I'm straight.... "Dude, if you like that super sexy jock then your obviously gay. Now tell me this look at that girl and tell me honestly if you find her the least bit attractive!" I looked at her. He pointed to the "hottest" girl in school, Danielle... "I don't think she's hot... This is bad I don't think any of these girls are hot. But Ethan is one SEXY BEAST!" I was so embarrassed because I said that wayyyy to loud..... And everyone heard me... I yelled and ran. So when I got home Mom and Dad were talking about finally getting back together and Dad looked happy about it. Maybe this is a sign of good luck. (3 hours later) oh my god.. Oh my fucking god!!!!! Ethan followed me on Instagram!!!!! Ugh I'm such a fan girl! Wait how did he get my Instagram? Who gave it to him? Is Ethan stalking me? Ooh so many questions to think about. So mom just came in my room and told me that we have new neighbors and they have a son my age.... And that I have to meet him. "Mom I have enough friends" she gave me this like evil look "you can never have to many friends and you will meet this boy!" She smirks and walks out of my room. So I'm sitting here like this bitch! Also i'm tired... I need food too. Maybe a blanket too. Alright ill write in my diary later.

September 7

Dear Diary,

So I wake up and do the same boring shit every morning.. I get up, almost cry about life, get in the shower, put on something sexy and fix my hair (Yass because I'm a sexy bitch) and leave. But today was different.... I got up, jumped outta bed, showered, still put on something sexy and fix my hair (because I'm sexy) and when I went to leave Ethan is at my door. I looked at him and the shut the door and screamed. When I opened the door he looked at me "Y-you look good" I was so happy inside. "Thanks you too" he grabbed my hand and walked me outside. Ugh his hands are so warm! "I know you think I'm a SEXY BEAST as you would like to say and your ass looks good in those jeans." he grinned. "Yeah sorry about that I didn't mean to say that so loud, wait did you say my ass looks good? But I really like you and your really ho-" he grabbed my waste and pulled me forward our eyes locked then our lips. His lips are so sweet and warm. I'm still in shock while he's kissing me. Ethan tries to put his tongue in my mouth he almost forces himself in when I just let him slide his tongue in. So basically we are standing on the side-walk making out. My dreams are coming true! THANK YOU GOD! Then I pull that move were I leave them want more. I stop kissing him back, I whisper "thanks for that heated kiss" then I wink and run to school. When I look back he's just standing there with that sexy smirk on his face. When I run into Cory I told him everything. "Dude, he kissed me and it was so sexy and warm. Did you know that he taste so sweet?!" Cory looks at me and he seems happy "no way!! I'm so happy for you!" I was curious "why?" He started to laugh. "Because you are no longer a dirty breeder!"

Thank you for reading my first book I've ever published and I hope you enjoy the rest of the book!