You're Pretty Dumb For A Smart Guy [KamiDeku]

17.

Midoriya, after sleeping in a slightly uncomfortable pile of girls on Ashido's bedroom floor, is back in his own room and continued to read Kaminari's journal from the point he left off.

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Heyyyyy

Idk what's up I'm just writing to ya for the sake of it. Uhhhhhhhhhhh, OH! I saw Shoji and Tokoyami making out in the lockers yesterday. I dont think they saw me but like, I'm 99% sure that's what they were doing, I didn't know they were close??? I didn't even know you could even MAKEOUT with a beak but idk. I also didn't know Shoji was able to take off his mask so that was just a bundle of surprises.

You must be getting some serious whiplash from how I can switch from happy, chipper logs to sad and lowkey depressing ones, but what can I say! I'm special like that. I can switch from sad to happy in real life too (I like to think I'm a good actor) but in you, diary, it's a little more genuine. Being around people can be exhausting, especially when I have to keep up that energy they expect me to have/to match their energy. I don't always have it in me despite the whole electricity thing.

Oops, I'm switching around again

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(Diary entry from chap 4, Deku rereads it just cause)

Dear hello,
Im still kinda dumb rn but I thot I should rite-----

This fucking hurts. And not just my pride.
Constantly being pumped with electricity and expelling it to the point when I can't function properly fucks you up. It's painful and when I'm on the verge of being braindead I can't tell people that. And I'm not gonna do it after the fact either.

I use my quirk for everything, charging phones, being an outlet for the electric kettle or toaster or whatever all the time. And I use it confidently so if I were to say my quirk caused me pain, no one would believe me. Oh but Denki! How could you possibly know? You must be wondering, journal, but trust me.

I know

I've already tried to tell mom and she outright laughed in my face, I can't imagine my friends or teachers reacting too differently. It's hard to imagine the kid who uses his quirk for nearly everything to be constantly being hurt by it at the same time, especially since he never shows any sign of his suffering.

I'll just live with it like I've been forced to do for forever already.

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Howdy Ho Diary

(Probably shouldn't have started off so chipper, oh well) Oma and I got into a fight today. Well, alright, it wasn't really a fight. It was just an argument and it wasn't even really that either. Oma knows everything, like all the stuff I write about, and she doesn't even need to get her hands on my diary to read me like a book. I really hate it sometimes. I know it's just cause she cares, I know, but there are some things I want to keep secret. She said I should talk to an actual person, not just to a book, but I don't know if I'm even capable of doing that. Oma just KNOWS this stuff so I dont tell her but I dont really wanna talk to her about it more then what we have/do.

She says she's not going to do anything if I dont want her to, but she thinks I should at least talk to the police about my moms neglect. She doesn't NEGLECT me she just.... has more important things to do with her time. Oma did say that the next time she finds out I tried to kill myself, she's going to the police whether I like it or not.

I wish a will to live just appeared as easily as words and threats are spoken

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Suppers puppers

Idk what's up lately but the tension around here isn't nearly as sexual as it could be. We just finished the sports festival, I probably should've written about that on its own but it was kind of boring, for me at least, I know Todoroki had some issues he worked out out there but I don't know what. We're gonna start our work studies and I'm pretty excited, time away from school AND home, it's great. We also get chances to improve even though we kids can't actually do any hero work without a hero license.

I can't really see myself improving much but I wonder how the others will do, I hope Bakugou gets his ass handed to him, it might mellow him out just a little bit, Iida too, he's intense just in a different way. I hope I won't have to act too much while at the work, being really chipper is just gonna wear me out quicker. The people there dont really know me so it shouldn't be weird for them to see me not acting happy and chipper, I just hope no one else I know is going to the same work studies place as me.

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Y'owdy man

K, so, I have no idea what happened out there during people's work studies but Iida definitely had something go down, I probably shouldn't have jinxed it. OH, and Midoriya doesn't break his bones any more! Idk what he changed but it was pretty freaking cool seeing him fly around like that, Bakugou was P I S S E D. It was hilarious. I have no doubt that he'll break more bones eventually, but at least his default isn't snapping his fingers like kitkats. His new costume is dope too, I think I heard him say that his mom made his old one. (Love her btw) That would understand why it didn't look as quality-made as all of our other costumes. I wish my mom would do stuff like that for me, but oh well. Midoriya's costume is a different colour green then before, a bit darker, it looks good. kinda hot tho.

.....ignore that

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Okay, SO

This is totally not fair. I just had one of my first proper long conversations with Midoriya earlier today and like, how????? He's literally the most perfect person I've ever met, I didn't know that was even possible. It doesn't help that he's attractive as fuck. This isn't a crush tho, right? I've never liked a dude before so maybe it's different but idk, I'll just ignore it. There's a ton of other attractive dudes AND girls in our class, I'm sure it's just a physical thing, not real feelings.

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I was wrong

I totally have a crush on Midoriya. Which is freaking bullshit by the way, and it's gonna be really annoying. EVERYONE loves Midoriya, and he's way out of my league, and I have 0 confidence for this sort of stuff. I'm obviously not gonna tell him, I dont really know him well enough and it'd be weird. Also, Bakugou hates his guts so I'd much rather not be torn a new one by him if he found out about that.

It'll probably go away, as long as Midoriya never talks to me again or stops being cute when he laughs or loses half of his muscles. Meaning it's definitely not gonna go away anytime soon. But I'll make it go away some way or another, it's more of a hindrance then anything, as great as it would be to kiss his cute freckled cheeks.

I'm done, I promise.

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Izuku giggled to himself at those two entries and he was starting to wish Kaminari had put the dates of them written. It would have been even funnier if Midoriya could see how long it took for Denki to realize that his feelings were more than just physical attraction. Just as he was about to continue reading, there was a knock on his door. Izuku groaned, throwing the journal back into his drawer.

'Can't people just text me about stuff instead of coming to my door?' He thought to himself bitterly as he stood up, stretching his back out before going to open his door. 'I hate being a main character' he sighed before checking to see who was standing there.

Uraraka and Iida stood there looking relatively excited and slightly proud of themselves. "Yes?" He asked, looking between the two of them in confusion.

Iida opened his mouth to speak but didn't get the chance when Uraraka jumped up, excitedly grabbing onto Izuku's shoulders. "We're going to the mall!" She cheered, activating her quirk and pulling him out of his room with ease and down the hallway.

'Does this happen often? How did I not notice how much shit I'm dragged into?'