Girls

Chapter 24

If there was ever a time to feel sorry for myself, the time is now. I sigh heavily into my pillow, burying my face deeper into the covers. My head is a fog of mush and sad stuff. Man this sucks. I don't know what her deal is, man, but fuck she's so cold.

My phone buzzes on my nightstand, Shannon's face glowing on the screen while she calls me. With effort, I reach for it and answer.

"Hmmmaagghh..." I mumble into the speaker.

My best friend voice screams through. "STOP MOPING AROUND YOU WAD. GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER AND LESS'GO." She orders.

"Go where?" I mumble again.

"Tyler n' I are taking you out, bitch. So take a fucking shower and come outside, bro," Shannon says and then hangs up. I lay in my bed for a few minutes, trying to muster up some energy to shower. My heart is heavy, though, and moving just sounds exhausting.

I shuffle into the bathroom and warm up my shower. My body is aching with melancholy, and to be honest, I look like shit. My hair is flipped everywhere, my shirt is rumpled...man I look as bad as I feel. I wonder what Sabrina would think of me right now. My stomach sinks at the thought of her name. I check my phone but she hasn't texted back. It's been an hour since she replied.

Am I being too clingy? Shit I wasn't like this with Andy...maybe I'm just freaking out. Maybe she's not really being so...I dunno..

But that's the thing: I don't know. And it bothers me. Like...a lot.

I get ready quickly and hurry to get outside. Shannon and Tyler are sprawled out on the lawn, braiding dandelions together into no specific shape. Shannon looks irritated and flings the dandelion thing into the street. A car drives by and runs over it, smashing the poor things. Oh great, I grumble to myself, just another thing to be depressed about.

"Micci!" Tyler beams at me.

"So where are we going?" I ask, sitting down beside them.

"I stole my uncle's car," Shannon says nonchalantly. I look at Tyler and he just fucking shrugs.

"I was shocked too," he snorts.

To Shannon I'm like, "YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE YOUR LICENCE. YOU CAN'T EVEN DRIVE."

"AYE I CAN DRIVE. Not very welllll BUT I CAN DRIVE." She huffs. "Acting like I'm gonna kill you or some shit. Damn man have some faith."

"She actually drove us over here," Tyler says. His bright face turns serious. "I've never been so scared in all my life."

"I AIN'T THAT BAD!" Shannon protests heartily. She fumes next to us and Tyler goes on to ask me what's wrong.

I play with the grass under my legs, not making eye contact. If I tell them my girlfriend is losing love and pulling away, I'll just get their pity and I don't want that. I just want Sabrina to be close to me again... My stomach clenches, my palms grow sweaty....I exhale heavily and look up at their waiting faces.

"I think Sabrina wants to break up," I say quietly.

Shannon doesn't give me the silence I was expecting. Instead, she starts mouthing off to me. "WHY!? THE FUCK HAPPENED!?"

"Shannon, chill out," Tyler interjects. The sympathy in his eyes is almost too much for me you handle.

I sigh and go, "She's been pulling away a lot and I dunno....things just feel strained, like I'm the one holding up the conversation. It's just....everything feels weird."

"Have you talked to her today?" Tyler asks. Shannon is too busy fuming to say anything or ask anything. I check my phone got the hundreth time and still see no message from her. Anxiety tugs at my heart strings.

"No, not yet," I say.

"Then here's what we do in the meantime," Shannon jingles her uncle's car keys in her hand. "Let's say fuck this girl and her shitty games and go get some god damn sushi. We're gonna get you outta this funk, hoe, whether I have to shove sushi down your throat or not."

"How is sushi going to help?" I ask her blandly. I am pretty hungry but I honestly don't think food is going to help lift me up or whatever.

Shannon then turns her head and meets her steely black eyes with mine. She says with smirk on her mouth, "I know how you lesbians like your damn fish."

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"Whyyyyyy did we order the Dragon dish!? Why!? Just why!?" Shannon groans in the passenger seat while Tyler drives us to his place. She ate twice as much as us and guzzled down a Pepsi. Not going to lie though, I ate quite a bit and chugged a lot of Dr. Pepper. Can I just say that sushi and soda don't go well together!?

Tyler drives into a small pothole and nausea creeps over me. Shannon is moaning and holding her stomach. We're a mess over here.

"Next time I'm picking where we eat," Tyler sighs. He parks in front of his house and helps us crippled chicks out of the car. Shannon and I plop right on the front porch as he goes in to look for something.

"Feeling better?" Shannon winces and hugs her stomach.

I nearly laugh but my stomach hurts too. "Are you kidding me? I feel like I'm being sawed in half."

"No, are you doing better compared to earlier?"

"I guess you could say the pain is distracting me from what's going on," I chuckle lightly.

"If she's fucking with you man, drop her." She looks at me, "I'm serious."

"I know."

"Don't let her drag you around."

"I won't."

"Just tell her how you feel and go from there. If she cares, she'll be up front with you."

"You're right..." We stop talking and watch the sun sink down slowly in our comfortable silence. Tyler comes back with some pepto bismol for us. The neighborhood is quiet and for once today, my thoughts are quiet as well.

End
Song: fire escape by foster the people