Girls

Chapter 6

I stare at my blank notebook and sigh. I haven't written anything down since class started and we only have about ten minutes left so there's no point in even trying now. Instead I daydream about Elizabeth dumping her boyfriend and running to me. Unfortunately, the unlikeliness of that happening gets to me and I push the dream out. I try doodling and focusing on something else, but all that does is make me think about her more. I don't understand why I feel so invested in her. I mean, for one, I hardly know a thing about her. Honestly, I don't even know her favorite color. Or her favorite food. Or even her favorite band, if she's even into bands! I don't know shit about Elizabeth and here I am jealous as can be that she's with someone else.

For all I know, we're very incompatible. But one can dream, right?

My mind wanders off to Sabrina and her shy smile. I know I don't know her very well either, but something about her just pulls me in. She's so quiet and she always gets nervous when she's around me. She's so intriguing and so...I don't know...mysterious? No, I wouldn't say mysterious. She's just so quiet so it makes me wonder what she's thinking about all of the time. She doesn't make me feel so nervous, either, unlike Elizabeth. I just feel comfortable and relaxed when I'm around her...

So okay, yeah. I may have some feelings for Sabrina. I may really enjoy watching her lips curl up into a smile, and I may really like hearing her laugh when her scary friend Jade says something funny. I can't help but want to be the reason why she laughs and smiles...but I also want to be the reason Elizabeth laughs and smiles too. Man....what is wrong with me?

The bell rings loudly, causing me to jump and ruin my doodle. I let out another loud sigh and pack my things. I don't know if I can handle seeing Elizabeth right now. She'll probably be there looking great as always and she'll be bragging about how amazing her boyfriend is. I think I'm just going to avoid her, but that means I'll have to avoid Sabrina, too, unless she isn't around Elizabeth...hmmmm.

"Nicki! Wait up," Tyler calls out as I'm walking to the locker rooms. I look up at him and Shannon, watching them walk over to me.

"Hey guys," I say solemnly. Tyler is confused while Shannon is just sympathetic.

"Still upset, bro?" Shannon links her arm through mine while we walk. I shrug in response since there isn't much to say. Shannon goes, "It's alright, dude. I know you liked her a lot, but, like I said, you could get a girl who is worthy of your awesomeness."

"Like Sabina?" I suggest.

"Wait, wait," Tyler intervenes, his face contorted with confused and curiosity. "What happened?? Nicki, why are you upset??"

"Elizabeth has a boyfriend and Nicki is hella sad about it." Shannon basically sums it up for me.

Tyler nods his head like by doing so, he'll absorb what she just said. After a second, he says to me, "That sucks. I'm sorry, Nicki."

"Thanks, Ty." I offer him a half smile. He gives me a big toothy grin in return and I laugh.

"Anyways," Shannon says, "Yeah, like Sabrina. She seems pretty cool. And single too."

"Is she gay or bisexual?" Tyler asks us. This actually hasn't occurred to me. Is she? Shit, what if she's straight and I end up crushing hella hard on a straight girl?? That would suck so bad.

Even Shannon is pondering this now. She turns to me, "Maybe you should ask Elizabeth or Jade. They'd probably know, right?"

I stare blankly at her. She can't be seriously right now. I'm going to be avoiding Elizabeth like the plague today and hell if I ever speak to Jade. I'm not into the mood to have Jade's eyes judge my entire existence. Shannon finally realizes why I'm staring at her and has a light bulb moment.