Nothing left to lose

Pills,pills nothing but pills

Nia kept playing friendly, and I was doing much the same. I wasn't gonna question her attitude.
And as for me I kept lying to my friends and telling them I'm fine. and I really was fine. I have a new 'prescription' of 'pills' that help me stay wake all night to study. I must admit they are my favorite. They put all other pills to shame. and I got them in the nick of time too. Our humanities teacher Mr Thorn (Mr Prick I call him) gave us like a thousand hours worth of homework to be completed in 5 days! As you could imagine staying awake for 5 days and nights has it's ups and downs. An up is that I finished all my work in 3 nights, but a down is people start to notice your becoming a little mental. but that's fine who cares? I mean at least I'm working productively.
"Lucy!" I yell and motion my hand towards me telling her to walk over.
"Oh, um, hi Anna, um how are you?" Lucy still doesn't know about my new but old addiction. Actually no one knows for sure, I mean they have their theories, but nothing is for sure.
"Um, Im good. and you?" I stutter more focused on stopping my left eye twitching then what I'm saying.
"Yeah I'm good. I'm sort of busy so... I'll catch up with you later." Lucy walks off to her new friend Lindy. Lucy and I haven't really talked much after she's been noticing drastic changes in my attitude and appearance. for example I always used to do my hair in plats with ribbons, now it's always in a messy ponytail or bun. and I've stopped doing my make up cuz my skin needs to breathe whilst I'm taking these pills (or else I'll become pimply Polly). So that shows my blood shot eyes and dark circles under them. and my attitude, nothing's changed I don't know what she's talking about with that I mean sure I've become a little more irritable, and drowsy but other than that.
"Oh Anna!" Nia waves
"Hey." I breathe
"What's wrong? Missing Harry?" She asks, Harry's been over in Bali for 2 weeks and will come back in 3 so not much longer.
"Yeah a little." I sigh
"I thought so... hey I've got the best coverup for your dark circles that could so hide them. I used them for my dark circle, of course mine was a bruise. thank god it didn't leave a scar!" Nia chirps. She still hasn't said anything about me punching her. I'm starting to wonder if she really doesn't know it was me.
Nia hands me the little tube of coverup.
"Um no thanks I need to let my skin breathe... for now at least." I put the tube back in Nia's hand.
"Ok I get it. Come on Lea, Brittany and Jasmine are over here." Nia drags me away.
Nia and I have actually been talking a lot lately. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not just yet.