And the Petals Fall

tête-à-tête

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I feel so safe on this bed, safer than what I feel in my head,

It's a little too sullen

I have conversations with my mind, every single time I write

Lightly bashing my skull in

The most confusing word, one you've never heard

Founded on a mad September

Is heating up to burn, and before it takes a turn,

I scribble down the embers

               Beaten or forgotten, at least it still exists,

              Maybe it's time to rest easy and unclench my fists.

I'm going tête-à-tête against myself,

Against the closets I've always left closed

All the regrets tide over each other,

Washing out the choices I never chose.

I'm going tête-à-tête against myself,

Against all the cities I have ceased to build

Every spoken story and those buried too,

Have come together in this war of wills.

Like a howling wolf in a forest, I cry at the moon and get dressed

In a black night gown

And I drive with my soul beside me, begging for some empathy

As we pass by hundred ghost towns

The cardboard box and funnel, protecting her from this tunnel

May be ripping apart

Her head exhausted and hurt, is hanging down like the words

I ignited in the name of art

                  They're not beaten, they're not forgotten,

                  It's just that they reached hell, and not some heaven

                 But I'll still protect them, as much as I can

                So when I reach out, please take my hand.

I'm going tête-à-tête against myself,

Against the closets I've always left closed

All the regrets tide over each other,

Washing out the choices I never chose.

I'm going tête-à-tête against myself,

Against all the cities I have ceased to build

Every spoken story and those buried too,

Have come together in this war of wills.

I'm going tête-à-tête against myself,

Against those clouds that never reached the sky

And if they were the only breakthrough,

Then maybe I can keep aside this pride.

I'm going tête-à-tête against myself,

Against those weeds that were stepped upon

And all the light that never touched the ground,

Is gonna check out at a new break of dawn.

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