Bittersweet

~ ~ Silver Linings ~ ~

~~ Jenna ~~

Biting my nail, knee bobbing up and down, I waited nervously for them to finish up with Ava's scan of her kidney's... the third one. What in god's name was taking so long?

Jesus, I felt like death warmed up, having not slept, barely eaten and consumed more coffee in the last forty-eight hours than I'd done in the previous fortnight. It was fair to say I was feeling the stress, verging on a meltdown.

Shutting my eyes, Gabe's face steamrolled through, triggering another swell of tears behind my eyelids.  I'd been a bitch. 

I hadn't wanted to hurt him, but that's exactly what I'd done. Stupid, stupid Jenna. 

And why on god's green earth did I say he was a rebound?

I pressed my hand to my stomach, hoping the coffee that was burning a hole in my gut would stay down. I just wanted this day over with already.

Rebound!   The word bounced around my head. It would no doubt haunt me. And worse still, it was so far from the truth—and cruel.

You had no choice, Jenna.   Did I?   No!

My phone buzzed in my pocket, pulling it out. It was the devil himself texting.

Tony

And oh look, not a word regarding our daughters health. No, the asshole was demanding an answer.  Had I ended it with his brother! 

A spear sliced through my chest as Gabe's face rode my thoughts again. He would hate me, no doubt, and I deserved it.

I'd wanted to tell him the truth, but knowing what he'd done to Tony when he'd seen him with another woman. I just knew he would react badly and kick Tony's ass and probably land himself in jail and I would lose Ava.

Not that I didn't want to kick Tony's ass myself.  I'd never hated a single person in my entire life, but Tony Valentino was seriously coming close to sitting in that box.

Why had it taken so long for me to see what an asshole he was? Nothing like the man I'd married.  He had been sweet once, maybe even loved me?

Well, the blond tramp was welcome to him. I made a promise to myself, I would never speak to him again unless it concerned Ava.  He had backed me into a corner and for the first time in my life I felt powerless. He had threatened me with the one thing I would never fight him on.

"Jesus Jenna, there you are!" a frantic voice pulled me from my thoughts... Janelle.

She rushed over and plonked herself down, pulling me into a hug.  "Are you trying to kill me?  You had me so worried, and you weren't making any sense on the phone."  She pulled back giving me the once over, checking for any sign of a head injury, probably.