Avian Journal 4: Muscle Development

Resuming this?? Yeah it seems like it.

Hellooo.
Sometimes i'm a real fucking dumbass.
I told myself I was taking a break from wings to focus on ghoul stuff.
I was going to just focus on ghoul stuff.
But then my idiot self almost broke down crying because of how bad I wanted to just jump off the side of the grand canyon and fly through it and that's when I realized I couldn't do that anymore.
I keep being drawn back to this no matter how much I try to escape it.
I don't think that's a bad thing but yeah.
I still want to be a ghoul though, and becoming a ghoul and growing wings seems like a very hard thing to do at the same time but you know what i'm going to try.
So yeah pretty much I got a sudden boost of "motivation" and now i'm back. I feel bad for not updating this for so long and my mind is kinda all over the place with what i focus on, and tbh school is going to get really overwhelming soon with all the AP exams and trying to make As and Bs when I usually just get Cs so don't be surprised if i take another break, but by now i have realized that no matter what happens, i'm always going to come back to this. it'll be easier in the summer.
so yeah i guess i'm starting updates again? i'm going to try and make a routine of listening to ghoul subs at night and avian subs at day once i get new headphones because i broke mine while mountain biking, but for now i have a mixed playlist with both avian subs and ghoul subs in it. i constantly forget to update btw, just because i don't update for a while tho doesn't mean i quit. i probably just keep getting distracted by other things whenever i try to update. also! i'm thinking of adding some new entries to my guide for avians!! so yeah.
here's some pictures i took of the grand canyon, my dads didn't let me bring my camera tho so they're pretty crappy

~rei