i choose u

.Chapter Twenty-Nine.

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This part contains 'over the top' s e x u a l content. Be prepared, take it maturely, or skip to the next chapter when the chance comes. Thank you and enjoy! >P<

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.Chapter Twenty-Nine.

               So, this is how the story went; before I got out of the car, I was kissed by Blaine. 

        It was a little sudden and the vibe I got from him was a weird one, it felt like he wanted to tell me something. His car sat in the driveway while we made-out in the front seat, heavy breaths, and his hands running all over my body. It was uncomfortable for a second, since we both had to lean over in our seats, but he suddenly pulled away without hesitation and asked the question, 'Ayame, do you want to do it tonight?'

        "What?" I said, taking in small breaths that I had wasted on kissing. That was when I remembered Blaine on top of me in his office. My face flushed a bright red and I had to turn away for a second. "Oh, ahaha, I don't think-"

        "I'm not forcing you to do anything, I just don't want to do anything that would hurt you, not until you're ready," Blaine interrupted. I had my mouth open wanting to say something, like 'no' or 'why all of the sudden?' but I couldn't. Something deep down inside of me had muted me and then Blaine and I 'doing it' popped into my head. I stared into Blaine's eyes, looking for the right answer. I didn't want to hurt him, I wanted to be his, but did I really trust him, or myself? My father suddenly came to mind and I shook my head 'no'. Blaine sat back in seat and smiled. 

        "Alright," was all he said, and stepped out of the car. My hand reached towards him, but I didn't catch him in time. What was it that I was so worried about? Blaine walk over to my side of the car and opened the door for me, allowing me to step out. I looked into his eyes again as I stood up and fixed my shirt, Was he disappointed? Hurt? I searched for his hidden expressions and he was completly calm about it. That kind of pissed me off. 

        Up the stairs of the house I went, with Blaine following behind me after taking off his shoes and setting his phone on the side table. Every footstep up the steps seemed like I was missing my chance, missing my chance to just turn around and jump into his arms, but I was hopelessly done for. The truth was, I guess I just wanted it to come naturally. The more I thought about it, I made up reasons why it was the best idea not to tonight, I don't remember putting on sexy underwear, or taking a shower before hand. My head started to spin with thoughts and I had to catch onto the railing. 

        "You alright?" he asked, holding my sides and steadying me again. 

        "Thanks." I smiled and continued up the stairs. I passed his room, coming to a slow stop just after his door. Blaine opened his bedroom door. then looked back at me. 

        "You sure you're okay?" He sounded worried all of the sudden and I turned back around to look him in the face.

        "It's just-" I couldn't finish my sentence. I was so hesitant, so embarrassed, what could I say after I had just rejected S E X from the man I love, who told me he loves me? That's all that mattered, right? He stood with his bedroom door open, one hand on the doorknob and the other just limp at his side as if inviting me. My feet wouldn't move, but I didn't need to. For a long time, we both stayed where we were and thought about it carefully. Before I could make up my mind, Blaine had already made up his. His hands caressed my face, his lips brushed mine, warming me with his soft and gentle kisses, and he led me slowly to his bedroom.

        Before I realized it, we were laying on Blaine's bed. My body felt hot everywhere he touched me. His hands slowly ran up under my shirt, pulling it off, then he took a second to pull his off. He leaned back in to kiss me again, still soft kisses, but the more time we took kissing the faster it got. His hands that were on my waist moved down my back and my pants were pulled off my body. I was too focused on the kissing to realize. Every time he pulled away, it gave me a chance to breathe. Blaine kicked off his pants and was now only in his boxers. Our bodies were starting to move like there was a rhythm. He easily clicked my bra off and then slid my underwear down my legs, kissing my body, then lightly sucking on my skin. I clenched the sheets, moaned a little too loudly, then caught myself doing it and felt really embarrassed. He worked his way back up after I was fully naked and he was as well. I saw Blaine's eyes wander up and down my body, but before I could be embarrassed about it he kissed me deeply. Focus on the kissing, that's all I needed to do. I felt his bare body against mine and gasped.

        "Just relax," he whispered in my ear, embracing me. My eyes closed and throughout the night, Blaine made love to me.