~ 𝓘 𝓙𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓦𝓪𝓷𝓽 𝓨𝓸𝓾 ~ 𝕶𝖆𝖌𝖊𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖆 𝖋𝖆𝖓𝖋𝖎𝖈

3: Helping or Hurting?

Hinata's POV

I rode my bike as fast as I can.

I CAN'T BELIEVE I CALLED KAGEYAMA CUTE RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIS FACE!

I was flustered and happy at the same time, but that dark feeling soon came back. It was hard to fake a smile right in front of someone you like. I even gave him good advice and encouraged him to be with her.

"UGH I HATE EVERYTHING!" I yelled while riding my bike up the hill.

I reached home and all i wanted to do is plop right into bed.

I got home a little too late and all that was left in the house was the kitchen light. I got a piece of bread in the fridge and closed the light in the kitchen. I went to my room and proceeded to eat the bread while putting everything away.

I finally had my pjs, and fell right into bed. But I couldn't sleep. My eyes don't feel tired. The picture of Kageyama with Erika just hurts thinkinf about. I just wanna sleep to forget it! Ughh.

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I looked at the beeping clock to see it's 6:00am. I groan in response. I only got 3 hours of sleep, because I stayed up all night thinking about Kageyama.

I shut off the alarm and drag myself to the washroom.

'Ew, I look like a mess.' I thought to myself.

I started to develop dark circles under my eyes, but they're not too visible. My eyes were a bit red from crying myself to sleep and I kinda look pale. This is not good for me!

I took a quick shower and got ready as fast as I could. Ate my bowl of cereal as fast as I can and got everything I needed for school.

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I watch Kageyama talk to Erika. To be honest, i never talked to Erika. I know she's nice, since she volunteers a lot in school, but i never really get to know her. But of course, I dont want to just go up to her, that would be weird.

"So Kageyama, I was wondering if you could help me with the teacher after school." She smiled.

"Of course, but I can't help you for that long, I have volleyball ball!" Kageyama rubbed his head.

"No worries! It's just going to take 5 minutes!" She smiles.

Yeah, that girl definitely likes Kageyama... But why do I hate her? She is such a nice girl, yet I feel something negative towards her.

"Well, since I'm your friend, c-could I have your phone number?" Kageyama awkwardly asks.

"Of course!"

Erika offers her phone to Kageyama and he proceedes to put his number on her phone.

'Heh, that hurt my heart a bit' I mentally said.

I should just stop overreacting, it's not like I even had a chance with Kageyama anyway!

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It was after school and almost all the club members were at the gym, except for Kageyama. Of course I already know why.

"Hey has anyone seen Kageyama?" Tanaka asked.

"Oh he's just helping the girl he was with yesterday." I responded.

"Yup, Kageyama definitely likes the girl!" Noya smirks. "Im surprised Kageyama even liked someone!"

"I know right!" I agree. "He's always like, I dont need anyone and I can do it all by myself!"

While Tanaka, Noya and I were laughing at my impression of Kageyama, I didn't notice Kageyama standing right behind me.

"HINATA YOU DUMBASS!" He smacked me in the head, causing me to fall down.

"Ow! I meant it as a joke!" I laughed.

"How was hanging out with your girlfriend!" Noya laughed

"Eh! Who told you that!" Kageyama looked at me. "HINATA I SWEAR, WERE YOU EAVESDROPPING!?"

"Calm down guys, and start practicing!" Daichi aggressively pats me and Kageyama's back sending both of us chills.

"Y-yes!" We both say in unison.

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It has already been a month since Erika and Kageyama started being actual good friends. After Kageyama helped Erika with the teacher, they started getting more close. Instead of spending extra time with me in volleyball, he would want to go home right away to go text Erika. He would also go to practice late sometimes, because he "lost track of time talking to Erika."

I started getting used to their very close interactions and the feeling of my heart getting crushed. It isn't that mentally painful anymore. But now I feel mad towards Erika. It was fine that Erika took Kageyama's love, but now she's talking Kageyama's time for volleyball!

Then one day, Kageyama actually stayed more time in practice.

"Uh, Kageyama? You know that practice ended 5 minutes ego, yet you still wanna do volleyball?" I asked confused.

"Yeah, I know?" Kageyama looked at me all weird.

"Well don't you usually go text your girlfriend?"

"OH SHUT UP," He spiked the volleyball right in my face.

"Ow!!!" I whine.

"Uhhh Sorry." He looked down. "But today me and Erika had a mini argument, so I just wanted to give her some space."

"Oh well, wanna talk to me about it?"

"Well, the reason why I come in late to practice is because I spent time with Erika, and it's kinda annoying how she drags me around helping her with stuff. So then today I asked her if I could at least stay at practice for more longer, but she was disappointed, because apparently I promised her to help her with something." Kageyama sighed "She didn't tell me that she was mad at me, but I just wanted to give her space instead of nagging her."

"Um that wasn't a fight Kageyama, you just put the blame on yourself, because you just wanted to play volleyball" I blurted out.

Kageyama looked at me all mad. "OH SHUT UP!"

"But for real, you shouldn't always blame yourself for every inconvenience, if you want to play volleyball, play volleyball." I smile. "Also, don't force yourself to do whatever Erika says!"

"Heh, I guess your right..." Kageyama rolled his eyes.