𝑂𝑢𝑡 𝑂𝑓 𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝐷𝑎𝑟𝑘

8

April 20, 2020

📍Amenas House

Amena Armani Kelly

Lately I've just been feeling down. Ian been around the gang inna couple days. Of course they checked on me but I made an excuse so they didn't think anything was wrong with me.

Gangnem〽️

Lil🤍: Mena you sliding today ?

naw gotta couple tattoos to do today and i'm going somewhere

Shittybootylia💕: mchtt i just feel like you lying now cause this whole week you been "busy"

Lil🤍,Kyra🤎 and 3 others liked a message

Ace♠️: ong, wassup witchu

i'm coo, i just been busy das all

Kb🙄: aight so we pulling up on you

no, and i'm so deadass cause i'm bout leave up outta here

Eli💛🏆: you acting sus mena ion like that😐

mchtt aight imma push up later🙄

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I decided to leave it at that and not respond to the new messages coming up.

Honestly I just wanted time for myself, and I know I can't be mad at them because I didn't tell them and they're just being good friends checking up on me.

I hopped out of my bed and ran me a shower. I already know where i'm going today, I know I'll feel better after.

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I was done getting ready for my day. I had on a black, comfy sweatsuit with my retro 1s.

I got in my car and played Leave some day by Kevin Muney.

"Hey hey, hey hey

Hey hey, hey hey

Look up to God, put my head in the sky

Loses after loses, I just wonder why

People think I'm trippin' like my shoes untied

If it wasn't for the music, would've gave up now

I cry in the dark that's why I seen alright

But I know that I'm special, not the average time

It's alright to cry sometimes

It's gon' be okay, gon' be fine

We all gotta leave some day

And that's the scariest thing

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah"

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I pulled up to the cemetery and sat in my car preparing myself for this. I haven't been here in 2 years, because every time I went, I'd lash out the next day. I'd trash my room, punch holes in my wall asking myself "why them ?"