Behind The Cameras | BxB

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Hongjoong plopped on his bed, setting down the cup on the night table and diverted his attention towards Seonghwa. Seonghwa was looking down, rubbing his arms from nervousness as he felt the stare of the person in front of him, burying into his soul.

"So, you said you wanted to talk? Now is your chance.", Hongjoong said, his cold tone coming back once again.

"The man..you saw the other day was an ex-boyfriend of mine. I dated him when I was in highschool..", Seonghwa starts, his voice trailing of as he gives a short glance to Hongjoong.

Hongjoong had no emotion in his face, no since of pain, anger, jealousy...it was just blank. What Seonghwa didn't know though was that Hongjoong was feeling so much inside. He was sad that Seonghwa fell in love for someone else first. He was angry that Seonghwa never told him about this Cheolmin-hyung. He was jealous that Cheolmin was Seonghwa's first love.

"We actually dated for awhile, until he disappeared and the last thing I heard of him was that...he had a fiancée and got married.", Seonghwa cleared his throat after saying the last sentence.

Just like I said, no one knew about this relationship they had. His family, his friends, the members, none at all. This was the first time Hongjoong heard about this. He didn't know how to react, he never knew the relationship that happened between the two, he never knew what kind of person Cheolmin was.

"And what happened in the museum? Why did he kiss you?", Hongjoong crossed his arms and tilted his head, expecting an answer.

Seonghwa didn't want to lock eyes with the person in front of him so he only looked down while fiddling with his plushie, "He wanted to get back with me because he divorced his wife saying that he didn't feel the same things with her as he did with me-"

"And you want him back?", Hongjoong asked, cutting off Seonghwa's sentence.

"What? No! Never! I rejected him that time because I'm in love with you, not him!", Seonghwa exclaimed, a confused expression plastered on his face on why Hongjoong would ask such a thing.

Hongjoong couldn't believe what he heard. Of course Seonghwa and Hongjoong had been exchanging 'I love you' to each other, but he has never heard him defend and protest his love. His body tenses and slowly straightened, understanding that this was serious.

This wasn't a dream, it was reality that now he heard how Seonghwa would be so determined to fight for his love for Hongjoong. Seonghwa noticed how the other got caught off guard, he then stood up and walked over, grabbing the small soft hands of the person he claimed to love.

"Kim Hongjoong, I know this probably isn't the right time to ask you this. But I have no more choice and I do not want to waste anymore second of you having the freedom to be in someone's arms.", Seongwha had his mind fixed on this, he had not doubts on asking this particular question.

"W-what question..?", Hongjoong softly asked, slowly looking up, his eyes quavering of both excitement and nervousness. Was this the moment he wanted all his life? Or was he overthinking and maybe it was just a stupid question? Those thoughts kept on roaming around his mind until it was blown away when he heard those words.

"I want you to be mine and mine only Hongjoong. Will you give me this chance to make you happy forever? Will you be the person I will get to spend most of my life with?", Seonghwa's grip turned tighter as he asked those questions.

In reality, he was actually too embarrassed to ask those, especially that the start of the conversation was about the worst event that made their relationship fall down. For Seonghwa, this was either the time where he wins back the love of his life, or their broken relationship would forever last.

"I..I don't know Hwa, you already hurt me like this. You didn't even tell me about this relationship you had, I thought we trusted each other...", Hongjoong looked down on his lap.

Before, he was certainly sure that he wanted to be with Seonghwa, every second of the day. He was sure he wanted to face the hardships of his life with the boy he loved. But after that one incident, his trust broke and he has been doubting about his life with Seonghwa.

Of course there would be no perfect relationship, and that is what scared Hongjoong. He was too scared of commitment, but Hwa had this thing in him that made Hongjoong want to at least take a risk. Hongjoong knew Seonghwa was special and that's why he wanted this relationship to last.

Seonghwa's fingers traces and cups Joong's cheeks, him bending down low to be at the same viewpoint, "Give me a chance, I promise that I will never hurt you again. I really want to spend all my life with you Hongjoong. I want to take on the risk with you."

As their eyes locked, both held the universe inside. It was as if time stopped around them and it would only continue until Hongjoong gives out the answer Seonghwa had been longing for. After a few seconds, Hongjoong's head slowly moves up and down. Seonghwa's eyes had brightened up again once he saw the gesture, and even grew brighter as he heard Hongjoong say it.

"I'll give you a chance...just keep your promise.", Hongjoong softly mutters. And without a second passing by Seonghwa's lips found Joong's again, with the sudden force that happened, Hongjoong fell on his back as Seonghwa fell on top of him.

"Y-yah...aren't you too excited?", Hongjoong shyly asked as his hands rested on Hwa's chest, ready to stop him anytime.

"No, I don't plan to do it right now. But I just want to feel you in my arms again.", Seonghwa gave a bright tender smile as he stares at the love of his life in front of him.

"I'm still not over what happened Hwa..", Hongjoong rolled his eyes playfully. Seonghwa gave a teasing look and bent down to whisper on his ear.

"Should I make you forget about it for awhile then?", Seonghwa seductively teased, feeling himself being pushed away by a flustered Hongjoong.

"I know you were up to something no good. I'm going to sleep goodnight.", Hongjoong goes to the other side of his bed, his back facing towards Seonghwa.

As Seonghwa watches this tiny person move around fast because of awkwardness, a small chuckle left his lips, followed by a happy sigh. He then went to fix himself beside Hongjoong, his body unconsciously going closer.

"What are you doing? Go sleep on your own bed!", Hongjoong annoyingly exclaimed as he looked at the person behind him.

"Just go to sleep...I missed this feeling. You've been ignoring me for three days at least let me have my moment with you.", Seonghwa pouts as he pulls Hongjoong's body closer to his. He sniffs Hongjoong's hair and is greeted by the sweet similar smell like a baby.

"Tch, I wanted to have a good sleep.", Hongjoong whined, a frustrated sigh being huffed out.

"Then just hug me, I'm sure your sleep would be better when you feel my presence.", Seonghwa had a cocky tone in his voice, Hongjoong rolling his eyes of annoyance, but was followed by a smile, Seonghwa not noticing because Joong was looking at the other way.

"Yeah, yeah, whatever idiot. Night.", Hongjoong tried to sound unimpressed and then closed his eyes, wanting to fall asleep right into the arms of the man he has been wanting to hold near him these past few days. Seonghwa closes his eyes and plants a soft kiss on Hongjoong's shoulder.

"Goodnight to my star. I'm happy that you gave me a chance. I promise I won't hurt you anymore, I love you and forever will, until our next life."