imagines | shawn mendes

friends & lovers

a/n
truly cannot believe
that i am posting rn but
here i am

haven't posted in like a year but a sudden rush of motivation overcame me and i thought i'd write my thoughts down. this is what came out.
hope you enjoy <3

„y/n! y/n!" you heard a voice yell over the loud music.

as you turned around you realized that it was your friend, pushing her body through the small crowd in the hallway. her drink in her hand almost spilling out.

"there you are. i've been looking everywhere for you!" she said when she reached you.

"sorry.. i just got here. are you alright?" you held her up a little by grabbing both of her elbows.

"i'm fine. this party is amazing!" she chuckled. "shawn really does know how to throw the best ones, doesn't he?"

"he sure does." you mumbled.

"why are you so late?" she asked, sipping from her drink.

"oh uh, you know, work." you lied with a nervous chuckle.

mary raised her eyebrows as she tilted her head to the left. "oh god, y/n!" she exclaimed.

"what?" you whisper-yelled.

you pulled her into the small corridor that lead to shawn's bedroom. it was quiet there since everyone was either outside or in the living room.

"you still haven't talked to him!" mary whisper-yelled back.

you hesitated before answering.
"no.. but i swear i was going to!"

"then why didn't you?"

"because i- uhm, there was just a lot going on. i don't know, it seemed stupid." you told her.

"go to him right now and talk to him! this is ridiculous, y/n. he's your best friend!" mary slightly shoved your shoulder.

"a best friend, whom i kissed! this is so awkward, mary." you whined.

"it's not going to be less awkward if you wait until he's on tour again. now go!"

you sighed but nodded in agreement. you took a deep breath before you stepped back into the crowded living area.

your eyes roamed through the room, desperately searching for the curly brown head. usually he was easy to find. one because he was quite tall and two because most people pretty much formed a circle around him. however, that night you could not spot him so easily.

"have you seen shawn?" you asked multiple people as you passed them by.

"he's at the bar!" one guy told you before he got back to dancing with his girlfriend.

you quietly thanked him before walking outside to the bar. you immediately saw him and it felt like your heart dropped to your stomach. you were suddenly so nervous, something that never happened when you were around shawn.

you walked towards the bar, a rush of confidence floating through your body. that confidence didn't last long though. as a guy, who stood in front of shawn, moved away, he revealed a brunette girl, trapped under shawns arm. she was smiling up at him, her hand pressed against his chest.

your facial expressions dropped. but before you got to turn around shawns gaze met yours. he smiled before raising his hand, signaling for you to come over.

"y/n!" he yelled.

you tried your hardest to put on your best fake smile, anxiously walking over. you brushed one strand of hair behind your ear as you looked down.