imagines | shawn mendes

pull through

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you heard the front door closing with a quiet thud. pulling the thick blanket even more into your face, you snuggled deeper into the comfortable couch and focused on your tv.

"hey babe," shawn chirped as he entered the living room.

he went over to you, leaned down and kissed your cheek, then your forehead. your boyfriend then tilted his head to look at the screen.
"titanic? oh, no. what happened?" he immediately caught on.

"nothing," you murmured, keeping your gaze on the screen.

"come on, you can't fool me hun" he sat down and placed his hands on your legs.

"it just sucks, y-you know?" you immediately started sobbing and sat up.

"oh baby," he shushed, pulling you into his comforting embrace. "what sucks?"

"e-everything! it's all so fucked up. diana is causing drama just to annoy me, i started to have my period this morning and my cramps hurt so f-fucking bad. on top of that, you are out there living your best life whilst i have to go to uni when i don't even know what i wanna do later in life! h-how is that fair?" you cried into his chest. emotions over floating your body.

the fight with your best friend, diana, was really hard on you. she couldn't understand how you'd completely fallen in love with shawn and did some huge sacrifices to make a life with him possible. she never really dated guys. she thought it was stupid to make your life all about one person.

and, maybe she was right with that. but, it was different with shawn. you were in this together and both did sacrifices and said goodbye to old habits for each other. it wasn't one sided.

"y/n, what happened with diana?" shawn rubbed his hand up and down your back as he tried to steady your breath.

you then explained everything to him and made some comments about her behavior.

"so she's still against our relationship? i thought we went past that.." shawn was upset that your best friend didn't support your decision and your relationship from the beginning. diana always said that he had a bad influence on you.

"she just things that we are moving too fast.." you tried to explain. you didn't want him to feel bad about himself.

"isn't she supposed to support her best friend, though? i don't understand wh- this isn't her life! why does she have to act like it is, all the damn time?" his frustration was clear. his eyebrows were scrunched together as he tried to remain calm.

"i don't know, baby.." you admitted, leaning further into his snuggly chest.

"i'm sorry. this is about you and your feelings, not about me." he shook it off and turned his attention to you. "are you okay because of your... period?"

you immediately looked down and fumed with the ring on your finger. not an engagement ring, by the way. "yeah... i guess."

"babe, we said not to stress about anything. it happens when it's time for us, yeah?"

the two of you have tried to get pregnant for a few months now. every month the disappointment of the start of your period increased and made you feel miserable. it somehow felt like you weren't able to do the job you wanted to do as a women. it was stupid but you couldn't control your feelings.

"yeah." you nodded, lips slowly shaking but you didn't want to start crying again.

"please don't blame yourself. it's no ones fault. it'll happen soon, i know it. i love you," he softly kissed you on the lips. you kissed back until you broke apart a few moments later and tightly hugged him.

"we are in this together. no matter what people say." you said, knowing that this is the only way you could pull through.

"exactly." he chuckled before he kissed the top of your head.