inspired by ari's song "boyfriend"~
the loud music pulsed in your ears as the humid air floated through your exhausted lungs. the noise of people's drunk words were heard in the room but your attention was elsewhere.
your sweaty body swayed against his as his hands caressed your sides and went over your clothed stomach. your back was pressed against his hot body and your hand slowly crept up his neck to his slight damp hair and gently tugged at it.
"you're so hot," his deep voice whispered into your ear.
a smirk plastered on your lips. you swayed your hips against his earning a low grunt from his lips. his grip tightened on your clothing.
as you turned around to kiss him, his body was torn away from yours. it took you a moment to realize that a tall figure pushed his body away, gritting a few words through his teeth before he turned around and walked towards you.
"what are you doing, shawn?" you huffed, crossing your arms in front of your chest.
"i should ask you that, baby." he rasped. his hands rested on your hips as he pushed you closer to him and started to sway his hips in the rhythm of the current song.
"don't call me that."
"you didn't had a problem with that three nights ago." he grinned.
your cheeks heated up and you hoped that he couldn't see the redness forming on them in the dark light.
"i just want to have fun. can you please leave me alone?" you said calmly.
"have fun with me." he said as his hands went around your back.
"you're not my boyfriend." you clarified.
"you're not my girlfriend. so?" he furrowed his eyebrows.
"you're not allowed to push guys away from me."
"i didn't." he looked at you as if he was an innocent little boy. it's crazy that you wanted to scream at him and smash your lips against his at the same time.
"you literally did that all night!"
"maybe i don't wanna see you with anybody else."
you huffed, "yeah, right. you know what shawn, it's so funny how your mind can change in two days! one minute you're acting so fucking cold and tell me that you want nothing from me other than sex and the other you're acting like a protective boyfriend. make your mind up, shawn. i've had enough from your stupid little game."
and with that you stormed away from the scene, outside of the club to get a cab. you were so angry that you let him ruin a night that was supposed to be fun yet again. how come he always got his way? why didn't he feel the pain that you felt?
neither of you seemed to get what you wanted.
you held your hand up as a cab drove down the almost empty street. you always loved toronto the most at night times. it was so peaceful, so quiet and the darkness gave the city a whole other definition of beautiful.
the cab stopped and you quickly hopped in and buckled yourself up. as you were about to tell the driver your address the door opened again and shawn sat down next to you with a sigh.
you rolled your eyes at his childish behavior.
"don't roll your eyes on me, y/n." he warned before he told the driver his address.
"what?! no. no way, i want to go home, shawn!" you protested.
"relax. i just want to talk. i'll bring you home later."
"i don't want you to bring me home! i don't need you to bring me home. and i do not want to talk to you."
"you're acting childish, y/n." he said as the car began driving down the street.
"oh i am? how about you just shut the fuck up and leave me alone. i'm done with you, shawn." you exclaimed angrily.
"don't say that! god, fighting with you is so exhausting." he breathed.
"good for you that you don't have to speak another word with me ever again after tonight." you gave him a fake smile before you looked out of the window.
"but, i don't want that. i don't wanna lose you." he spoke softly.
your gaze didn't move from the moving houses, though. "but maybe i do! everything is always revolved around you. i'm so tired of it."
"i'm sorry." he whispered, his hand reaching up to yours but you pulled away.
"you said you didn't want any more than we had and i wanted more than that. seems like we both can't get what we want." you now looked at him.
you'd never seen this face expression in his face before. it was raw and honest and so, so beautiful to watch.
"i can't be with you. i am so messed up, i'm such a trainwreck." he admitted, his voice breaking a little.
"so am i. we're both so fucked up." you lightly chuckled.
"i don't want to ruin your pure soul. there's so much darkness in my life, y/n. i can't pull you into that even though i want nothing more than to do that." his raw voice spoke.
you intertwined your hand with his. this side of shawn was so pleasant to witness. it was his true self and not the guy that acted to be tough all the time.
"but i want to. shawn, i really want to." you told him.
"what if things don't work out?" he queried.
"i don't know.. i don't like to make assumptions about the future. it's in our hands what happens with us." you said after a moment of silence.
"i can't imagine losing you now, what would happen if i'd lose you when i'm madly in love with you? i think i would die." he shook his head.
"you don't have to lose me, baby." you cupped his jaw with your petite hand.
"promise me to stay with me." a single tear rolled down his beautiful cheeks.
you pouted, your heart was aching and bursting at the same time. "promise me the same?"
he nodded. "pinky promise?"
"pinky promise." you intertwined both of your pinky's as an adorable smile crept up to his precious face.
oh, what a turn that night made.
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imagines | shawn mendes
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