still human to me [osamu dazai x reader]

morning after | 10

i wanted to add an a-n but i don't know what to say, so um, hi guys! i hope you're doings well :)

Your eyes watched what was going on outside the window. The sun had just risen, and your alarm was about to go off at any minute. A golden light sifted its way through the curtains of your room, and pooled onto you and Dazai.

Speaking of Dazai, your body relaxed into the feeling of your bare skin against his and his warm light breath brushing up against your neck. His arm was lazily draped across your waist. You could tell he still was soundly asleep.

Carefully, you removed his arm from your waist and crept your way out of bed. You caught your reflection and immediately paused. Your eyes wandered across your body, examining the marks and lovebites across your neck, collarbone, stomach and thighs, presumably left by Dazai. A violent blush bloomed across your face as you remember each event of last night.

Before you knew it, you began thinking of Odasaku. You had just learned he was a dear friend to Dazai (like you were) and that he had been the main reason Dazai joined the agency. Would he have approved of you and Dazai being together? Let alone the two of you sleeping together without first having discussed the possibility of a relationship? Would he have thought Dazai was right for you? Would he have thought you were right for Dazai?

You looked back at him. You felt a sense of serendipity fill your body as you noticed the way his eyes flickered, along with the warm smile across his face. If he was dreaming, you certainly hoped it was a good dream. You gathered your clothes and quietly put them on, being sure not to wake Dazai.

You began preparing coffee for the both of you, the aroma of sweet caffeine filling the room. The day dawned crisp and clear, I looked out the window at the rising sun that castes a rosy hue across the morning sky. The just risen morning called the flurry of early morning activity from Yokohama's residents, eliminating any trace of the night.

You heard someone stumble into the room. You turned around and immediately blushed, seeing Dazai standing there. He didn't bother to at least put a shirt of, all he had were the slacks from last night. His chocolate locks were messy and disheveled, strands sticking up as he lazily ran his fingers through them. His bandages were loosely hanging off of his body, and just barely you could see the jagged, parallel scars that littered his skin. Each one were reminders of what would've happened if he dared disobey his boss, or if one somber night he desperately needed to cope. Seeing them broke your heart into pieces.

"Last night was fun..." He chuckled in between yawns as he walked over to you. "Hopefully I didn't leave too many marks on you, [N/N]~" He teased.

"Me too, I did quite a number on your back." You respond sheepishly. He looked confused, looking over his shoulder in surprise. Immediately he noticed the light red scratches that you had clawed in, presumably because of the pleasure.

For someone who claimed to be a virgin, he surely knew how to pleasure someone.

"I did you so well last night, I see~" He teased again. You bit your lip.

You sighed, regaining your thoughts. "So, what are we now?"

Dazai blinked, and stared at you. "Well, what do you want us to be?"

"I don't know, hell, you probably only fucked me for fun." You hissed, to which he stared at you and laughed.

"I would never fuck someone just for fun!" He exclaimed dramatically, placing a hand on his chest. You managed to stifle a laugh.

"If it means any condolence to you, I, Osamu Dazai, have been in love with you since the day I first laid my eyes on you." He stated confidently. You smiled, feeling a warm uprising in your chest as you placed your hands on the back of his neck and closing the distance between his and your lips. One of his hands made their way to your cheek, tucking a few strands of hair behind you ear, as the other rested on your waist.

"So, will you be mine?" He pulled away, staring deep into your soul.

You smiled again.

"Yes." You whispered, going back in for more.

ahahaha online school really is beating the crap out of me :,)

i miss you guys, i hope you're all doing well!

i love u guys to pluto and back <3