still human to me [osamu dazai x reader]

Smoke| 5

yosano ilysm and i need you to marry me ❤️

!one slight mention of suicide, please, if you feel like anything will be triggered, I ask you to maybe avoid reading this. Only a slight mention of it, but I'll still put this warning out here!

You walked out of the convenience store, still trying to process everything that just happened.

You just bought a pack of cigarettes. Turns out your 'friend' Shizuo got you interested in it.

You swiftly shoved the pack into your bag as you made your way to the the agency's office. "Good morning." You breathed out upon entering. Atsushi and Kyouka shot you a wave as you did your best to give them a smile, despite the fact that you were in a irksome mood.

You walked over and sat at your desk at your desk, stressed. You barely got any sleep, hence the dark circles under your eyes, your hair was disheveled and unkept, and all of this was tied together with your uneven posture walking in. You got up with a handful of papers as you walked too the infirmary to give Yosano her papers.

"These are for you, Yosano-chan." You said as you handed them to her. She took them, smiling at your sight. Naturally, you to managed to get along. You weren't that terrified of her treatment.

"Thank you [Y/N], is something bothering you?" She asked as she noticed your state. You popped your head out of the infirmary doors, making sure Dazai had walked out to annoy anyone in the cafe below. After watching him waltz off, you turned to your friend to explain what had been bothering you lately.

"Well, yesterday night, Dazai asked if he could get to know me better. He asked me a few questions, but, since you know I hate talking about myself I caved and left." You explained to Yosano, emphasis on 'get to know.'

You watched as she smiled at you while laughing. "Oh, [Y/N]." She laughed out. "I think Dazai likes you."

You blushed different shades of pink at her commentary. "What? No!" You denied, trying to hide your flustered face.

"Based on your reaction, you have to let me ask." Yosano started. "Do you want Dazai to like you?"

You blushed even harder, but quickly regained your senses. "Yosano-chan, we're not five. If he did like me, he'd come right out and say it." You paused, looking down. It was true, Dazai's caramel brown locks and his captivating chocolate eyes dragged you in every now in then- or, more accurately, every day. You secretly adored every little detail that made up Osamu Dazai, whether it be his seductive smirk or his rich personality. "I've been here for a while, and he hasn't said anything, so, I think its safe to say he has no interest in me." You said with a slight tint of disappointment in your voice. Yosano quickly noticed this as she patted your shoulder and smiled.

"Don't think like that kiddo, i'm sure something will happen." She comforted you as she watched your lips form into a sheepish smile. "Thank you." You said while slightly blushing, thinking of Dazai.

"Alright, these papers go to- Oh, speak of the devil, they go to Dazai." You breathed out, knowing you'd have to face him again. "Go get him." Yosano said as she watched you walk out of the infirmary and down to the cafe below.

You scanned the room, you chuckled as you saw Dazai flirting with one of the maids there. He quickly noticed you, walking towards you.

"Hey, these are for you." You said as you handed him the papers.

"Ugh, more paperwork, How boring!" He exclaimed dramatically.

"And, um, about last night-" You started, but quickly cut yourself off, hoping he didn't here you.