Mania +All American+

Chapter 3: Parties and tryouts

(A/N. When will she and JJ first have flirty moments? And what do you think will happen with Zan and the bakers)

After school I went to Crenshaw and saw shawn and Zan sitting there. While I knew that he would be the person i was meeting, part of me hoped it wasn't.

"I wondered," zan said eyeing me.

"I did to. He good?" I asked turning to my boyfriend.

"Why dont you let him show you," shawn said, a smirk playing on his lips.

"Outside. What's ya song?" I asked him.

"Humble by Kendrick lamar."

Shut up. Bitch. Sit down.

"Pick a new song."

He gave me a confused look but followed me out back. He played another kendrick lamar song and did some pretty incredible moves. Shawn's right, he will be perfect for my crew.

"You in," I told him and a smile spread across his face.

"Dont tell my parents though. Please, they nothing about what I'm doing."

"Your secrets safe with me.".

He thanked me and we went to meet with the crew.

"Alright. We got four days to prefect this routine. Hope yall ready," I told the crew.

We started to practice our routine but I started to feel really sluggish  throughout the practice. It's a side effect to my medicine, sluggishness and tiredness.

"Alright. Five minute break!" I announced.

"Its only been thirty minutes," Fresno snapped.

"I said five minutes."

These side effects are why people quit taking their meds. Their brutal. Hard to cope with. Once I had a bit more energy we finished with the practice and I was glad when it was over.

"Need a ride back home?" Zan asked me and I nodded my head.

We walked out to the car and he was staring me up and down.

"Yes?" I finally asked.

"Why were you so tired in practice?" He asked me,"and be honest. You know my secrets so it's only fair."

"I'm bipolar. My medicine causes me to get tired easy."

"That sucks," was all he said.

"Yeah," I agreed.

He drove us home and I noticed an angry looking jordan.

"What's wrong?" I asked the mixed boy.

"Fuck you and your fucking brother," he growled and pushed by us.

Me and Zan shared a confused look before I went upstairs to look for my brother. He wasnt in his room confusing me. He does know hes supposed to be in Beverly right? I mean this is his dumbass idea.

I went to my room and collapsed on my bed. I fell asleep quickly. I had the same dreams as usual here recently. Lamar's death. When I woke up my brother was sitting on the edge of my bed looking concerned.

"You were crying in your sleep," he said,"lamar?"

I nodded my head. He sat next to me and brought me into his side. While we may not always see eye to eye me and my twin are always there for eachother. Always.

After an hour he left me in the room And I knew I wasn't falling back asleep. So i stayed up and worked through routines in my head. Theres a huge competition that takes place the night after the football championship game. It's all of the dance teams of california, and which ever crew wins gets an opportunity to be in a famous persons music video. This year its kendric Lamar. This was Lamar's dream and I am determined to achieve it for his honor.

When it was time to get ready for school I changes into a cropped black t-shirt and army pants. When I got to school JJ was waiting by my locker, like he did every morning, so we could walk to bio together.

"I'm having a party tonight, you should come," he told me.

"Aight. I'm done. Let's see if you can party as hard as we do in crenshaw," I told me with a smirk playing on my lips.

So after practice that night I changed back into my crop top and army pants and headed over. I felt kind of energized which was nice. Once I walked in JJ offered me a beer which I happily accepted. Shawn already offered to pick me let me stay at his place after the party tonight.

Me and JJ got really drunk was dancing to the music. I havent felt this alive in a long time. Another side effect to my meds is you dont always feel alive. But tonight, I felt alive.

"Do you have a boyfriend?" JJ asked me.

I nodded my head Yes. A flicker of emotion went through his eyes but it was gone as quick as it came.

"Hes lucky. Your amazing," he told me and spun me to the beat of the music.

I laughed as he did it. The music in the background and letting loose with a freind is something a really needed.

"What do you think your doing?" Spencer asked me.

"Having fun," I suggested and brought the red solo cup to my lips.

"Your being reckless," he corrected.

"And it feels like fun!" I yelled over the music then started laughing.

I laugh alot when I'm drunk. I think its becuase the alcohol tricks my brain into being a normal happy teenage brain, but doctors like to think it messes with my medicine. My thought process seems more fun.

"Your sisters right Spence. Let loose," jordan said handing him a beer.

"We have practice tomorrow," he told jordan.

"It doesnt matter," he brushed off.

"Come on. You only are a teen once," I said and downed the rest of my drink.

Spencer caved and downed his cup. We all cheered and kept drinking. Well I'm not sure if jordan was drinking, but me and JJ definitely were.

Once I was done I called shawn and his car was in Beverly in fifteen minutes. He helped me stumbled into my car and we drove back to Crenshaw. Once he helped me up the stairs to his apartment he helped me change into some of his clothes. I laid next to him on his bed and cuddled into his side.

"Goodnight Shawn," I said, already falling asleep.

"Goodnight Jade," he said kissing my forehead.

The next day was my competition and I was hella hungover. Fresno and Zan knew it to.

"Are you good to compete?" Zan asked me.

"I just need a burger and some water," I told the boys.

We got what I needed and I felt better enough to perform. Part of me debated taking my meds so I'd have more energy, but knew it was a bad decision. Okay, so Zan made me take my medication but that isnt the point.

The routine was actually going good, then I felt completely and totally drained and empty. And it came from nowhere. I went to do a flip that I've done a hundred times, but couldnt get the air and fell almost on my head.

"Jade!" Zan yelled and ran to check on me.

"I'm fine," I gasped out.

He helped me up and our crew walked from the stage. Everyone else was aware of my issue so they knew what had happened. The problem was, this was I ran out of energy too quick, and I wasnt getting any back.

It wasnt drinking, because I was always fine the next day. No something was seriously wrong, but I wasnt going to admit it. So I put on a smile and pretended to be okay.